an open letter to my ex....
By rendhel09
@rendhel09 (120)
Philippines
August 1, 2010 6:02pm CST
it malevolently occured to me again, this time in the middle of procrastinating, i kept you safe within the remote areas of my consciousness, when i think about you, it left me with a touch of sadness, so i made it point not to think about you anymore, at least not as often as i used to, in the form of preoccupation. i refuse to live in the past. what we shared lives in the past does not control me any longer. don't get me wrong, i will forever treasure it but i won't let it hold me back. for a time, i almost forgot who i was without you. i'll never let that happen again. i won't ever lose myself again. you hurt me many, many times. i was a fool to think that it was a better way of dealing with things that i never dared to tell you anything about that i was hurting. and that, i presume to be my biggest mistake: i abandoned myself. perhaps, i still do love you, but that won't do much now. i can fight to save everything that i have invested but i choose not to. i have treasured you in the past and that would be enough. what i can do is to rebuild everything not according to the past but according to what i am now and eventually i will be...your ex....
4 responses
@junrapmian (2169)
• Philippines
2 Aug 10
I guess, we all have to move on....let the bygones be bygones as they say. It is really painful at first but if you will think of the hurt and the hard times you have with that someone, it is better to forget her and move on. It is a long process, I know, but we have to think of ourselves, we have a life to live and we have others to share it with. It's time that you build yourself again and who knows there's someone out there waiting for you to be loved who will reciprocate the love you can offer and much more. God bless!
@hardworkinggurl (37063)
• United States
2 Aug 10
Sometimes in order to be completely rid of emotions we have to write things down. Once we see it on paper and re-read it we realize it's true meaning.
I take it from the responses above you moved on, which is great, yet there is some sorrow in what you wrote. Give it time and all wounds will be healed.
Good luck to you.
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@Laurelle11 (409)
• Australia
2 Aug 10
I'm not sure what you want people to say about this but if you are giving it to your ex I think it is a lovely way of saying that you are moving on.
@PDBME2 (1014)
• United States
2 Aug 10
Very beautiful piece of a letter but there is some sadness to it, kind of showing that in someway he/she still has a part of you. Maybe because of the sadness? I think you have really moved on when you could look back on it and smile. Just a part of life, and think how silly and naive you were.
