What does the Bible say about your self-will?

My belief is that God respects and supports our ability to choose, to make decisions and to hold opinions. That is the way He made us, after all. He did not want or need us to be mere automatons and you might say that He took a big risk in making us 'in His image' with the ability to choose to go our own ways. If you have worked in a company or for a boss, you will know that the healthiest companies and the best bosses are those which respect us as individuals and welcome us as partners in the venture rather than as mere employees. A successful business enterprise is one where all the employees understand and endorse the aims, ethos and standards of the company and work towards a common goal, each in the way in which they are strongest and best suited. The most important thing in such an enterprise is COMMUNICATION so that every individual knows what is required of them and can be supported (and, sometimes, corrected) by the people above them in the hierarchy, yet are still part of a TEAM. Yes, from time to time, there will be rogues who try to go their own way without listening to or respecting their superiors and colleagues. In fact (as St Paul points out) we have ALL made mistakes and not listened or understood enough about what our collective goal is. God is a boss whose office door is really and truly ALWAYS open. He LIKES us to talk to Him and ask His advice but He likes it even better when we begin to understand the system and make choices of our own which show that we have the same aims and ideals as He does. I am, of course, as bad a sinner as anyone and I have often done things which I felt ashamed of - either because I felt they were wrong and I had 'messed up' or because I felt I hadn't done them as well as I should have done. Whenever I have brought my misdeeds before the Lord, I have found comfort and encouragement and very little approbation. I have personally experienced and been shown how some things that I have done, which I thought were completely against the spirit of Christ, were subtly altered so that the bad and negative effects that I thought my actions would have had became good and positive. Whilst I still acknowledge that my choices might not have been the best, I have been amazed, astounded (and wholeheartedly grateful) at the way that something I thought bad has been turned into good.

Why would some omnipotent being create creatures with the ability to be strong and self-willed, as well as reasonable and intelligent, and then demand they act contrary to their creation? For such a perfect being, he certainly created extremely imperfect creatures, and then he even decides to blame them for his own mistakes. And actually, in all four gospels Jesus did say it would be quite easy - according to him, anything you ask for in prayer will be received. And no, it would not appear that he was speaking metaphorically.

What convince you that god is real and that god is good?

Yes, God gave us free will. That is why the greatest act of worship is when we give up our will and seek His own will first. Though doing this is not always easy because sometimes we may not understand God's will nor do we sometimes like it, because most of the time it causes pain/discomfort (there is dying inside us).

It being strong willed is part of a human temperament of which God is also the author. But since man fall from the grace of God such strong willed personality goes further strong yet, I we choose to be humble and yield unto the Almighty only then we can see real strength. Self surrender and dependence to God doesn't mean being powerless. It is the only way we can stop ourselves from self destruction if we continue to be by our own. Struggles of the will still happens to every person.