My First Discussion: Sharing Life About Me, Dreaming Life Towards Futrue.

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Dear friends, it's my first discussion & my english is poor, so don't throw me eggs. becoz i m just a senior-high boy.. i always wonder why i'm in a country with 1.5 billion people livin'in, where it's name called cha. although i'm proud of my identity of chinez & the conventional culture, i find myself abandoned by the cruel social life & i hate being low. i m not complaining about the lack of national rights, as u know we are all institutionalized that many authourities & medium r condemning. i just wanna talk about the personal experiences & my dreams. many friends of mine left for AU to study abroad & now we are in high school. they r so rich that even when i asked the reason why they wanna go to AU, their answers ain't "the education of chn is crazy" but "i think AU is pretty good & fun". i almost black out. i wanna join'em but my parents can afford it due to their traditional minds & their status of middle class. so my dream is to make a bucket of gold, & then leave. i have to say i m gay, as i can't stand any longer keeping saying it all the time. there was a speech before class, a girl who loves BL stuffs talked about gays. but the respondings were "BOOs". the teacher stand opposite us too. the whole social is so antiquated. u know. even that girl is my friend, i can't tell her any detail to her. no one can sure whether there'll be ONE friend who is gonna bite me like a fierce dog after i com out of a closet, turning my back to him/her. i suppose there's more than ONE. i'm planning to learn media-studies (like show producing or directing) in college which is coming next summer. yet there'r always barriers keeping me off the dream & destinations. on the one hand, i can't balance the traditional college-entrance-exam & the art(media) test, they r both improtant; on the other hand, the surroundings of media in chn is totally "deserted". my dream is to improve the situation, destroy "the General Bureau of (controlling) Radio, Film & TV" & make an original sci-fi show (haha, there exist no sci-fi in chn, but many many costume pieces which suck!) i know my experiences r so normal for u guys, but for me, a chinese, it's not. i'm trying to live my own "American Dream" in china, haha.. so, i don't know if any one who pass by would take a look at my words, yet i'm so satisfied telling it all now, in english!~ Woo Hoo!..so, if u will, i'd like to talk to & make friends with all of u!..thx for reading it.. Ur new guy, Js