I'm wishing you well, love and happiness...
By eurekafemme
@eurekafemme (5876)
Philippines
September 5, 2010 12:51pm CST
Despite of the odd things that happened between me and my husband, I can not deny the fact that I still care ABOUT him. Since, today is his birthday, I was planning to write a note for him just like the way I used to when we were still so in love. But right now, I just don't have the courage to do it since I am not sure if he will believe me or that he will appreciate it.
Nevertheless, I only wanted to tell him that I am grateful to him because God made him an instrument so I can enjoy the love of two wonderful angels in my life, SAnti and Ramses.
That, he paved the way to knowing who I really am and what I really want.That, despite of the reality that he doesn't need me he is trying to keep me because of the kids.
That, despite of the reality that it is not easy to live with me when he wishes (perhaps) to be with someone else, he is dealing with me with patience. Ah, there's just so much I need to tell him but I'd rather not.:(
Anyways, God knows I am wishing him well, love and happiness even if it means with someone else...And, I hope he will have the courage to tell me about it when he is ready to start a new life with her...
THANK YOU for the memories we shared together for the past 6 years, Honey.Days filled with laughters and tears and yet, the best days I hav were the days spent with you.:)
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7 responses
@cream97 (29086)
• United States
5 Sep 10
Hi, eurekafemme. This story had bought tears to my eyes. It has really touched my heart.
I am very sorry that you and your husband are no longer together. You have so much of love for him. I wished that he could read what you have written. Maybe someday, he can tell you honestly what you have meant to him. I just had to let two guys that I was holding in my heart, go. I have a husband now, who appreciates me and loves me more than anything. So, I am very grateful that he wants me and truly wants to be married to me. Those guys did not appreciate the love that I had for them. They just took advantage of my love and my admiration for them. They used it and played with my emotions. I hope that your husband can tell you what is deeply left in his heart for you. Surely he can't forget you. You are the mother of his two children. I hope that he realizes that you was just not another woman in his life. You were a woman of importance, a woman that loved and adored him.
I am very sorry that you and your husband are no longer together. You have so much of love for him. I wished that he could read what you have written. Maybe someday, he can tell you honestly what you have meant to him. I just had to let two guys that I was holding in my heart, go. I have a husband now, who appreciates me and loves me more than anything. So, I am very grateful that he wants me and truly wants to be married to me. Those guys did not appreciate the love that I had for them. They just took advantage of my love and my admiration for them. They used it and played with my emotions. I hope that your husband can tell you what is deeply left in his heart for you. Surely he can't forget you. You are the mother of his two children. I hope that he realizes that you was just not another woman in his life. You were a woman of importance, a woman that loved and adored him.2 people like this
@BlueAngelRS (2899)
• Canada
5 Sep 10
This story has also touched my heart.....I'm very happy you have a wonderful man now....
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
5 Sep 10
Hi, Cream.;)
Letting go is the hardest thing to do especially if we have given everything that we have and everything that we are. But, we must. When there's nothing left for us to hold on to, it is about time we face the bitter fact.
I am happy that there's someone who is taking care of you now. You deserve that. Those guys who hurt and used you don't fit in your life. I'm just glad to hear you realized your value. :)
Yup, Cream, for my husband I am just a woman who used to loved and adored him.One day, someone out there will tell me how lucky he is for I am in his life...:)
@BlueAngelRS (2899)
• Canada
5 Sep 10
That is very good of you and a responsible thing to do....When my husband and I split up at the time it was a very bad split up and hard one at that....My counclor told me to let him go with love and at the time I couldn't see myself doing that you are a very strong woman....Now 2 and half years later me ex husband has realized he does love me and and his kids and wants his family back....Our reasons for split up were that we lost a baby together and we taking the anger of our grieving out on each other is was a terrible time...
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@BlueAngelRS (2899)
• Canada
6 Sep 10
We were warned it could happen and didn't realize it at the time he lives a ways from me right now but yes we are getting back together...
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
6 Sep 10
It is not easy to let go of someone you have loved for so long especially if he is the father of your children. there will always be so much to be thankful because you've met him despite of the pain he caused you...
I'm sorry to hear your loss. No parents can bear the pain of losing a child. though you two shouldn't have taken it against each other but rather hold on to each other instead.
Are you two back in each other's arms again? I hope so... Such a waste that anger and grievances torn you apart...
God bless you, dear.:)
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@asxenon (1440)
• Malaysia
6 Sep 10
Your story is so touching... Your husband must be missing out something big if he ever leaves you/hurt you. Hopefully he will learn the fact that you are the one who is really truthful to him. Do hope your husband will come back to you and be a good and loving husband and father.
All the best to you!
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
6 Sep 10
I surrendered and rested my case, Asxenon. My husband will never see me that way. Ever. He doesn't even know what am i to him as a wife... Pathetic but this is the reality and it sucks big time...
But hey, what I said in my post came from the heart. Despite of the pains I endured from loving him, I still wish him the best of everything. His success is also my kids' success. And that's good enough for me.:)
@Mackenzie_jad228 (556)
• Philippines
6 Sep 10
Hi Eureka I'm so proud of you, you have the courage and strength to go through the life you have now. I'm also married. I'm scared and don't know what to do if I"m the one who under go through such things. I just hope I can ask advices from you about DOS's and Don't s of life to avoid from bad things to happened in married life. I don't know if I can handle the problems you have right now. I know you're a strong woman and I'm so proud of you.
God bless and good luck in your new endeavor in life.
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
6 Sep 10
Hi, Mackenzie.:)
Thank you for boosting my confidence.I'd like to tell you that in marriage there is a guarantee of a happy ending but how? Only you can make it happened. There's no motivational book that can make it a reality for you.And, despite of what I've been through and experienced everyday seems a new one,fresh pain or happiness.
One word, though, that I can give you: BELIEVE.
Sigh... it takes a a love bigger than life to stay in this situation without being completely drowned to its misery...
Don't fear, dear. Your fate is different from mine. :)
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
6 Sep 10
Yes, my angels... they are the reasons why I know in my heart that I can never hate him too much. I just love my kids so much and for them, I'll endure anything and everything. I have my obligations to the kids.
Never mind what I feel. Besides, I am sincere for wishing him the best.What I posted here came from my heart. No matter how deep he has hurt me, the fact remains that he is still the father of the kids I love so much...
@AmazedSweetie (63)
• United States
5 Sep 10
That is so sweet and very big of you! I have done the same thing. granted, I have never been married, but with my first love I did something like this. I told him that I will always care about him, even when we are with other people. We are now very good friends and I know I can count on him when I need to talk to someone.
Best of luck to you!
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@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
6 Sep 10
Hi, Sweetie.:)
I will not be a hypocrite here. I know that whatever happens to our relationship, there will always be that place in my heart meant only for him.:)I have never been through a lot with anybody else but him. Especially that he is the father of my kids who I love so much. Without him, I will never experience the love Santi and Ramses is giving me. Because of them, I've good reason why I shouldn't hate him so much.:)He's happiness and success are my kids', too.:)
I'm happy to hear that something like you and your ex can still exist despite of the break up. Now, I can see with much clarity that my husband and I can still be friends after the hurting is over...:)
@anurag3786 (6267)
• India
5 Sep 10
I am not a married person.. bit now i want to get marriage.. but i have no any girlfriend so i am waiting for her.. but i don't know when my wait is over.. please pray to God for me... also wishing to you love and happiness..
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
6 Sep 10
oh, you'll soon find her. You are still so young to be helpless in this case. In God's perfect time, you will meet her and your heart will know that she is the one. I still believe in love.:)
Goodluck.:)
