what should i do?

China
September 24, 2010 7:11am CST
tonight i got really hurt.i just want to cry,but i have no tears.i hate myself at times.i always hurt others unconsciously and hurt myself in return.at times ,i long to be all alone,no friends may be a disaster to others ,however may be a good thing to me and my so-called friends. if that comes true ,i would be happy to be free from guilt of hurting those people i care.how i wish to be single. i shouted at one of my best friends .she kept silent when we came back to dormitory.i believe she got hurt.and then i am really angry for she should do that.her silence make me feel i am the one who is responsible for all of this matter.after a overall consideration,i am ashamed to admit that i am the one to be blamed.i am really sad. i didn't mean to hurt anyone ,but it did happen.i just can't keep my temper under control.i really hate myself.being alone will do everyone good. i am eager to get rid of all of my freinds and live alone. i believe i can lead a lonely but easy life.yet i do not want to quit this freindship.guys,what should i do?
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4 responses
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
6 Oct 10
Hi Zydklmyt, Please don't give up your friendships. Good friends help us get through the tough times and make life enjoyable. Some time alone to think things over is a good thing but not permanently. Talk to your friend and apologize for your temper. I don't know just how bad your temper is but realizing that it is a problem for you is the first step in overcoming the problem. We all have tempers. It's in how you express it that can cause a problem for you. If you think you get angry too often and in unhealthy ways then maybe it would help to talk to a councelor about it. They could maybe offer ways to help you get it under control.
• India
24 Sep 10
Even my girlfriend does like that everytime. And afterwards feels guilty. She wants me to give her time every now and then which is not possible for me. So she gets angry and hurts me with her words. After that she feels guilty, but then also she hurts me. Friend, if you hurt anyone without your conscience you should be able to control yourself. That is the best part of it.
@anurag3786 (6267)
• India
24 Sep 10
I think in present time you are in anger. So now cool down and when your anger cool for sometimes then you should think why this is happen to you. What’s the reason behind it? I think even a small problem should be a bigger problem in future if we can’t do this for solving. I think you get helped of your friend. Even your family members you can get helped of their.
• Philippines
24 Sep 10
I think you need to talk to her to be able to make up with each other. You should face her head on but before that you should first calm yourself and take a deep breath. When it comes to friends they will always understand you.