Escaping Reality
By cyatibarra
@cyatibarra (123)
Philippines
September 26, 2010 7:04am CST
When I was young and something bothers me, I ran away from it. I used to find an escape and pretended that nothing was wrong. That is why i was the most easy going person whose smile's everyone loved. The sad part is that I still do, I ran away and sometimes I dont wanna think about it. I talk, I dance, I laugh, I smile a lot. I do anything and everything, that would keep my mind off of my fears, off of people I have loved and off of reality.
It's just my way of dealing with situations.
I wonder how many people do the same. I wonder how many of us are still trying to pretend that everything is normal and exactly at the place that its supposed to be.
But reality hits me in the late night hours when I lay myself in bed.
Deceiving myself will not take me anywhere. I know it, but I still deceive myself.
Life is never as complicated as we ourselves, make it.
I wonder why...
2 responses
@crackx (628)
• Belgium
26 Sep 10
I've been through this kind of situations, but they happened less and less frequently up until now. Fleeing from things you fear is good for once, but they can't keep on happening. If you do, flee, on every situation, you might start living in complete fear, I don't want such life, I definetly hope you won't get one as well.
@nightkid (89)
• China
26 Sep 10
Hi cyatibarra,i once had the similar experience before.when someone hurted me or some friend quarreled with me,i felt irritable and depressed so i wished that i could forget them all.Those terrible memories and unhappy experience,everything that made me negative ,i wanted to depart from them.
But i realize that it is a kind of cop-out lately.Though it bring me temperary comfort,i have to face everything in the end. it's only a mater of time,we'd better face the difficulty bravely.
