I am heavily laden...

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Hello mylotters.. I feel sad today. By just thinking all the responsibilities that I have to act upon just makes my heart so heavy. My father doesn't have a work, so my mother has to work hard for us to survive. I have 3 siblings, and I am the second from the eldest. When I graduated college, I was hired right away. Luckily, it pays me well for a beginner. My eldest sister is also working now but shes earning half of my salary. My other two sisters are still in college. Since my mother is still paying all her debts, and my eldest sister is saving for her board exam, I have to shoulder the other expenses. My mother's share is to pay the tuition fees of my sisters and the rest of the expenses is mine. I have to pay the bills, groceries and more. I couldn't really save. My salary is enough for everything. Just a week ago, I had an argument with my mother. She scolded me because I always went out with my friends. She shouted at me that I couldn't save because I always hang out with them, I am spending for nonsense. I was really trying my best to control my anger and shout her back but I didn't do that. I respect her so much. But I was really hurt and until now I feel so frustrated, and sad. I am not complaining for all my responsibilities because they are my family and it is also my obligation to help. But sometimes I just feel sad and tired thinking all of it. I honestly don't want to feel like this. Am I bad? What am I supposed to do? :(