My best friend, am I in love?

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My best friend and I have known each other for over 8 years. We know everything about each other, the good and the bad. We accept and have forgiven each other for any faults, and truly love each other. One night many years ago, things went a little bit too far. We agreed we would pretend like nothing ever happened, and not be weird around each other. Needless to say that didnt work. Then one night he told me he was in love with me. At this time, I have a boyfriend. (coincedently who my best friend hooked me up with) So I try to let it go in one ear and out the other. About 2 Years later my boyfriend and I are still together, but having some serious complications. My best friend and I still talk nearly everyday, and are as close as ever. We had done good not talking about that night, and not talking about the fact that he may still be in love with me. A huge fight broke out at my house between my boyfriend and I, so I decided to take a breather. I was taking my oldest daughter to the Movies, not long after I had left my best friend calls to invite me to see the same movie with his son (before I even told him I was heading to the movies) COINCIDENCE? So I met him at his house, the kids played outside for a few minutes and we headed to the movies. Like I knew he would, because he's such a gentleman, he paid for the movies. He could tell I was upset, and had been telling me he thinks its time i left my boyfriend. I thought this was only because they have had complications with agreeing on things before. So sitting in the movie theater he puts his arm for me, and pulls me in towards his chest. I found myself missing the smell of him (he always smells so good). And whispers in my ear that he loves me. The night ended with me left in utter confusion. My boyfriend and I have a child together. There are days where I couldnt be happier, then there are days where I question what I ever saw in him. His mood is never stable, and thats not necessarily his fault. But I find myself, everytime things start going south, wishing my best friend was there. And not in a best friend way. I miss his smell, and now when I see him I get butterflies. We talk about what it would be like, if it could ever work, etc. My boyfriend and I actually arent together right now. He's a live in roomate, mainly because I needed the extra help. But as of now things arent good with us. I dont want to make the mistake of Jumping into a relationship, so I have been distancing myself from my best friend. I dont want to take my baby's daddy from her, I already had to do that with my oldest. My boyfriend is in no way physically abusive, just unstable. Am I in love with My best friend? Should I make things work with my boyfriend? Or just up and forget about them both?