this day did i realize that i am not a true man

Hi. sparkzhang. You are maturing into a young man. As you mature you will be able to understand certain things. Your mind will expand and you will be able to decipher important things that will give you the understanding of what it means to be a man. I know that you will learn how to be a true man as you grow day by day.

Hi Sparkzhang, If you have come to realise it now then that means you are not too late. Means that it's going to be the beginning of your new life with many good changes and for better future. What you should do next is start slowly by being more independent, do all the thing you need to do for yourself without letting your parents do it for you, and try slowly to stop being dependant to them. Help you parents when there is something to be done, always offer them a hand, don't forget to get an advise from them with whatever you are planning to do next for example getting a job. Good luck and have a nice day