What can I do about my chronic depression and unhappiness?

This is probably my biggest reason for my depression is that I need a new environment badly and have for quite some time.

And I have little income way less then $1,000 per month and I have no car. Nor do I have the money to buy a car. Plus I'm not that good of a driver. A person is kind of limited when they don't have a car.

The big ? of the day is this "Is God and Jesus really out there?". People seem to be moving away from the belief in God. I do pray daily but I know that I really don't know if God and/or Jesus exist. I have a religious fanatic brother who I was corresponding with on facebook until he told me in a message that I was going to burn in the lake of fire. He told me a few years back that he knew (I mean he knew) that I was going to go to hell. Compared to other people I think I'm pretty good so if I'm going to burn I think most everybody is going to. But I don't think about this sort of stuff because this religious stuff can drive a person insane. I pretty sure I do not believe in such a horrifying place. I think people in the olden days made allot of stuff up.

I understand how you feel. I am actually a Chrisian and was raised in the church, but have been really struggling with my faith. I do not want to harp on you or at all sound like your brother; yet I will tell you my opinion. I do believe in both heaven and hell. I also believe that you cannot get to heaven by just being a "good person." It is actually much easier than that. In order to get to heaven, you have to accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior. However, many things have happened to me in the last year to ask the same question that you asked: Is God and Jesus really out there? And at the times when I am really depressed, I come back to the same thing: if I do not have God and hope, I have nothing. He gives me hope for the future. My advice to you is this: pray and ask God to show you if He is there and real. I believe He will somehow show you. If He does not let you know that He is there, then you can go on about your life. I will be praying for you. I hope that I did not sound like a judgmental Christian. I dislike those kinds of people. I am just telling you how I feel. God bless.

I tried to make friends with a few women in this apartment complex. One of them would not give me the time of day even after I paid her the kindness of keeping some of her packages for her until she arrived home. I asked her about her job and she blurts out "I'm an Engineer" kind of loud and in a tone like she was better. Actually she's an engineer in training. And another woman who is my exact same age wouldn't even go out with me for a cup of coffee after I'd talked with her outside quite a few times. Plus she would not invite me in her apartment not even for a minute. I'm a nice very likable person but only certain types of people seem to like me. The kind who don't judge you by the way you look, dress and sound.

I'm going to see if I can get an appt with a psychologist. I do walk quite a bit and I been eating salads and drinking smoothies. There are some specific reasons I'm depressed but I just don't feel comfortable listing them here.