Bearing My Soul...
By florisatan78
@florisatan78 (23)
Philippines
October 13, 2010 12:05am CST
Have you had a relationship with someone who by vocation dictates total submission to the will of the Almighty One? I once had. Think me bad, evil, a disgrace to my religion, my family..but before casting me a stone, please hear me out. It all happened when I was struggling to survive from my failed marriage... I was lonely, depressed and at my weakest. Someone offered a listening ear, a hand, a shoulder to cry on and I took it. At that moment,I knew I made a grave sin...i ended the relationship and tried to find my path again...wen to confession but it haunted me everyday; never a day would pass by that I didn't regret that...
At present, we stayed good friends and he remained a close friend of my family ( I didn't tell). We both repented for our mistakes and helped each other to return to the Father.
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@LadyMarissa (12148)
• United States
13 Oct 10
I'm sorry, I don't see what you've done wrong!!! In my mind, HE was the one who was sinning!!!! He is the one who broke his vow to God!!! However, since you feel that you have sinned against God, just pray & ask for His forgiveness. I feel that if God can forgive murderers, He can forgive you for being weak.I know I don't know all the facts here; but my guess is this guy broke his submission to God to take advantage of you in your weakened state of mind. If you sincerely pray from your heart & ask God's forgiveness, I feel you will be absolved of your perceived sin!!!
@iamjesca (185)
• Philippines
13 Oct 10
It was a real good thing that you ended the relationship early. It was really against their vows of chastity. And it was a good thing that you have repented from the sins you have committed. That is the most important of all. All you have to do is let the wounds heal. And try to stick to your friendship right now. I have also a friend who is in a relationship with an ex-seminarian. He said that he wasnt planning to come back again and continue his studies. They had a relationship after he went out of the seminary. Which is also a good thing because my friend was not involved at all in his decision to go out of the seminary. They are going well together now. All i can say is that you did the right thing by ending up the relationship. Lets just hope that you will be able to find new love with the right person.
