Sad and Happy weddings.

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I would just like to ask? Why is wrong. My cousin is in her 40 plus and found the man of her dreams. Of course I am not saying he is perfect, but I just went to our first fittings ( yeah I am happy for her and it's my first time being a bridesmaid. ) She is the most lovely person in the world on the inside and out. My sister thinks I am wrong because I felt so bad while we were waiting and I was watching other women trying on dresses. They all looked pretty and they all had engagement rings on. I felt like a toad. I am old I will never get to try on wedding dresses and I will never get married. I am a toad and my sister said I am wrong because I have a daughter who will get married one day. I tried to explain won't even be here by then so I can't get happy about that. All my life I tried to be a good person. I tried to do everything right. ( not perfect either ) I think I never looked attractive although I attracted alot of men. Woman who have this opportunity I feel happy for them espcially my cousin. I have a right to cry and be sad I will never have this. I don't feel sorry for myself but I feel thats the way life goes and I will die a old toad. Please someone tell me I am not wrong. I going to cry at the wedding of pure happiness for my cousin. Then cry myself to bad I was a toad.