How I miss writing.
By silentwill
@silentwill (1685)
Philippines
November 10, 2010 4:20pm CST
I was just reading my old blog and it still amazes me how much feeling and emotion I was able to put into writing and how easy it was for me to do it then. I miss that kind of feeling. I've thought of going back to blogging every now and then but while I sometimes still get ideas on what to write about, I just never did. I couldn't find the words, not even the first line to write. And so here I am, still wondering where that part of me went and why it left me. Is it just because I've become too busy that life caught up with me and I don't have time anymore to devote to writing? Then what am I doing right now in mylot? Or probably I lost that kind of emotion, I've grown and went through experiences which changed me and how I view life and even how I react and get affected by things happening around me? Have I become emotionless? Or have my priorities changed and the things which seemed important to me before no longer have the same weight they do now? I don't know. I wanna be able to write again without effort, with much gusto and desire as I did before, but I don't know if I'll ever be able to. Until then, I'll just read old posts and go back to that time, and that place, to experience it once again.
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@Burgandy0083 (29)
• United States
11 Nov 10
I think writing can be difficult when you have gone through intense, life changing experiences and the emotions that come to pen or key, they are not the type of emotions we want to share with the world? Last year I lost a child. I had other life altering experiences before that. Who wants to write "dark poetry"? Last year, I wrote my little boy's obituary. I wanted the obituary be about my son, and who he was, not just the typical obituary you see in the newspaper. I touched the Hearts of others who knew him,others asked if I had written the obituary because they said it sounded like me. I am learning, the innocence of emotion has become a thing of the past. How do we recapture it? How do we become inspired? We all carry life's emotions, ever changing. I suppose we continue to set self goals and when the "muse" comes back, look out! :)
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@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
12 Dec 10
So sad to hear about your son. I'm sure that obituary is one of the most heartfelt thing you've ever written and your boy would've been happy to hear that...
You are so right about the "muse." I can feel her just lurking here somewhere and I'm on the lookout to be able to capture her. Thank you for your wonderful response.
@Burgandy0083 (29)
• United States
15 Dec 10
Thank you. I feel her hiding in the shadows also. She sends me a quick sentence, then runs back into her very carefully selected hiding place. Good luck to you.
@wiggles18 (2506)
• Canada
11 Nov 10
Have you thought about writing short articles for freelance writing sites, like Triond and Bukisa? I don't have the time( or knowledge) to manage a blog, so I usually write for them. They pay fairly as well.
@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
11 Nov 10
No I haven't tried that. I'm worried that I won't be able to sustain it if I start.
@moxyl8 (22)
• Netherlands
11 Nov 10
Hi Silentwill
It's always sad to hear somebody stops writing. Writing to me (and I reckon for you as well) is a great way to express yourself and let out of emotion.
Try to find a place and start writing, quantity does not matter.
I write in a fabulous online place called 'hubpage', check out my profile for the link.
@wiggles18 (2506)
• Canada
11 Nov 10
But you don't have to sustain anything when you use Triond or Bukisa, or sites like that. Because the sites sustain it entirely. All you do is write whenever you want, and the site keeps the articles up and running through there program. Sometimes I don't write for weeks, come back and write a few things. Things I wrote in February are still going strong as of now :D And the earnings I have now are awesome.
@ganeshprabhuk (1722)
• India
11 Nov 10
Of course you will always be able to do these. Its a gud feeling to write down. Its always been said writing gets registered more in your mind that seeing. Its a very gud habbit of memories always warm and sweet.
@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
12 Dec 10
I guess what you're trying to say is that there will always come a time when I'd find that I'll be able to write again, and I do agree with that. Thank you.
@Transformed (1259)
• United States
12 Nov 10
It can be difficult to stop writing. It becomes easy to miss, especially if a person really enjoys it and it is a significant part of his/her life. Some people get up early in the morning to write and write until noon, while others write at night. Sometimes writers have to process their emotions differently, and as such, it can lead to not writing for awhile, simply because of mental fatigue or a sense of feeling overwhelmed with the different situations that may come about. Eventually, if one really relishes writing, the desire returns.
@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
12 Dec 10
Yeah, I read that popular writers have different routines to get themselves in the mood to write. I'm gonna have to say I don't have such a clear routine and pattern. I only write when I feel like it, and that mood is dependent on a lot of factors. I still have the desire to write, I never lost it, but I just couldn't find the right words. Lately though I've been feeling that I'm slowly getting there, so hopefully this is the start of a rekindled love affair with writing.
@naturalbella889 (135)
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11 Nov 10
Hey I've shut down my blog as well, due to writer's block. It's painful because I still have lots to say but I'm not sure whether it's time, inspiration or lack thereof, or my new life that keeps me from writing of blogging. I hate that. It brings on a frustration for me at least because I still need that outlet. I try to scrap some ideas in a note book in hopes that they'll be transformed into full fledged articles or stories at some point, it's a release but not a full one. I think there will come a point when you and I an all of us struggling to find our better writing half will find it again cause the world is such a crappy place without it.
@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
12 Dec 10
I seem to be on the right track. It's slowly building up but I feel that I'll be able to start writing consistently again. Hope you find yours soon if you haven't already.
@Lexielilly (173)
• Philippines
11 Nov 10
I really love to write, way back when I was in high school and college days, I used to be a member of an editorial magazine board. Tasks involve writing feature stories, news writing and a lot more..I miss it much, good thing myLot is here...
@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
12 Dec 10
You said it! Mylot is where I'm starting to find my way back into finding my writing self! 
@peavey (16936)
• United States
11 Nov 10
I have gone through the same thing. I go back and read things that I wrote some time back and they seem so much better than I can write now because I could put myself into them. Now writing is a job. I enjoy it and wouldn't want to do anything else, but it's still a job that I work at. I think, in reality that I'm a better writer now and you may very well be, too. I think sometimes the reason our old stuff seems good is because it evokes emotions in us that we appreciate. Others may not feel that. Don't go back to that time to compare it with today. Just use it as a stepping stone.
@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
12 Dec 10
Wow glad to know you even found a job writing now. that was my dream before but I know my limitations by now when it comes to writing that I just do it now for fun. I like your advice of not going back and compare what I've written before to what I can write now. It is counter productive and I should just focus on what I can learn from what I've written before. Who I was then is still somehow the same as who I am now, but a lot of things have changed as well and I should just focus on who I am today and what are the things happening to me now that I can write about and be happy about it.
@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
10 Nov 10
My feeling is that there has to be some kind of inspiration to get you to write. When I was younger, I wrote all the time, it seemed like I never had any kind of shortage of ideas. However, now that I am older and much of my life is consumed by my children, it is sometimes much more difficult for me to be able to write. I would recommend that you just hang in there because eventually inspiration will hit you again and you will be able to write to your heart's content.
@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
10 Nov 10
Funny thing is, since then I have had much more experiences and inspiration to draw from, but the muse just isn't there. I guess that's why I came back to mylot, if I can't write a blog, at least I can write a little here. Thanks for your response though, I hope it does hit me one day!
@jypsyjulia (912)
• United States
11 Nov 10
I know with my blog I would go through periods of really wanting to write and then go through periods where I absolutely couldn't find the words. I even deleted my blog at one point, because I just didn't want to deal with it; I've only recently come back and even then, my posts are very limited and hardly ever updated. Maybe you are feeling different emotions and may never write again, but chances are that if you feel the desire to want to write, you will probably feel a desire to write.
I don't think you've become emotionless just because you can't write right now; that's saying that anyone who doesn't write is emotionless and that is not a valid statement. Your priorities very well may have changed, but is this a bad thing?
@silentwill (1685)
• Philippines
12 Dec 10
I wouldn't come as far as deleting my blog, just because I couldn't continue it. I love what I've written there and am very proud of it. So unless the site itself closed down or do something on my account, it'll stay there forever.
I didn't really mean that just because I couldn't write mean I've become emotionless. I guess it's really a rhetorical question because I do feel that I'm not nearly as driven as emotion now as I was at that point of time in my life.
