Forgive and forget

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I have taken me out of my family with my siblings and my father. They constantly are hurting my feelings and say lies about one another. They all at one time or another have thought I was the first national bank. We grew up in the house from hell, constant fighting, name call, physical abuse,cheating and the whole gamit. When I was little I would always dream about a real family. When my mom died many years ago and there was still 5 minor children they were left to my alcoholic dad. He remarried 6 months after the death of my mother. One by one his minor children came to live with me or my other sister. I was very determined to keep us together as a family. My father was by no means a support in my minor siblings lives. Nor was his wife. My sister and I were very young newly married and trying to raise our own family. We had to put up with so much from the minor siblings. Now we are all much older and the fighting continues. My step mother died recently and the fighting got worse because every one wanted to take care of dad. the only person whom stuck by him and gave him respect was me. He came to live with me for seven short weeks the fighting and name calling was so bad I just could not do it any more. I told them I was done and dead to them. I have forgiven them for all their actions but I just can not forget. i forgive them because that is what God as us to do. I just live so differently from them. All these years and all the hurt I can not do it any more. I could probably write a book and make a million no one would believe the life we had. But I feel we should have learned from that but my siblings no way the just continue it on. I feel bad because they are my family but I just can not do it. what do you think any input