The Last Time

Philippines
December 15, 2010 1:02pm CST
I haven't really thought of him lately . I guess I was so successful in distancing myself from him. But, last week he was cleaning the car and I was looking at him (without really seeing him) from the window of our apartment.At first, I was watching what he was doing. Then, I realized I was really thinking of and looking at him. Oh, he grew older, with receding hair, and he gained weight too fast, too. Then, my thoughts brought me to our past. The good times we shared together and what we've been through together... Right there and then, I could have called his attention, made sure he saw me,gave him the sweetest smile, then, I'd whisper I love you for him in the air. But, I did not. Instead, I whispered "what happened to us?" He got on his car , took off, without seeing me looking at him again after so many years... When did the last time you really thought of someone special to you or used to be special to you?
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5 responses
saphrina
@saphrina (31551)
• South Africa
15 Dec 10
Hi sweetie. I think of mine each second of the day. He is in my blood so to speak. I cannot do anything without thinking of him. He brings a smile to my face each day. I hope you will find that happiness again. You really deserve that in life. TATA.
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eurekafemme
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
18 Dec 10
Oh, Saphy, I'm so glad to hear that there's someone making you smile every day.You are blessed to have that person. I know that in my heart I will find that happiness I deserve.:)I'm crossing my fingers...
saphrina
@saphrina (31551)
• South Africa
18 Dec 10
'm sure you will find it again, sweetie.
LetranKnight25
@LetranKnight25 (33121)
• Philippines
15 Dec 10
Hello Eureka-femme, Well, I am not sure what to say for the both of you. The special thing about being special is something that he needs to discover something from you again, most specially if he realizes his mistakes that he's making and finally how alone he can be with out you It's sad though he treats you a bit cold now compare before. As for me, it takes time to recover and realize how important once important some one is just a person that i need to let go myself of.. am one of those guys, who can just move on when it's not right anymore.
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eurekafemme
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
18 Dec 10
I am lost for words, too, Knight, when it comes to our situation. Maybe I have poured it all out here. Anyways, he once told me that he was sorry and that he wanted to spend his life with me , blah, blah, blah. But , I don't know if I should believe him... Must be my fault that I can not bring myself to believe him anymore... Oh, so, inside that sturdy armour of yours is a broken hearted knight, huh...Yes, Knight, letting go seems the best thing to do when things hurt more than make us feel good... Well, you'll be fine, dear... All wounds heal as time passes by.
Anora_Eldorath
@Anora_Eldorath (6028)
• United States
15 Dec 10
Eureka- The man I was seeing for a time before I married my current husband was suggested in a friend search on Facebook. I was actually surprised to see his name again! It had been well six years since I last saw him. He didn't look all that changed, and had a few pictures up with local "gal's". It was difficult to "not" have memories come back as I dated him for four years of my life before he decided to cheat. At that time in my life I was monogamous and was very hurt by what he did. I will say that now I am not as hurt, and feel it was simply what was to occur in this journey. Namaste-Anora
eurekafemme
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
18 Dec 10
Hi there Anora.:) Some good things never last, dear, and there are things that are not meant to be...I'm glad that you have moved on from that 4 year relationship, dear... Though sometimes we still remember how it was before but that's all we have to do and then moved on... We shouldn't wallow in sadness. :)
bird123
@bird123 (10643)
• United States
17 Dec 10
The question remains:::: What are you doing about this guy NOW?????
eurekafemme
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
18 Dec 10
Wanting him to answer such question before I go. You see, I need my peace of mind back. And the only way to do that is for him to clear everything about us. I have been confused as well as hurt and he owes me an explanation as to why the things that happened between us happened... I'm stubborn, I know. But, unless I get my answer, I'll not be able to free myself from our past and our relationship...
stylewaves
@stylewaves (1060)
• India
16 Dec 10
Many time dear , Before a week , i saw my lover , She only proposed me first before seven years , but i cant understand her at that moment then we transferred from that Locality to another . Later only i understood her love , now i am in need of her , i saw her past week , she was working as a Air hostess . How could i express my love to an Air hostess , i came aside with being noted by her .
eurekafemme
@eurekafemme (5876)
• Philippines
18 Dec 10
I'm sorry to hear that you had let her slipped away but maybe during that time it was the best thing for you to do... If I were you, I will not hesitate to approach her the next time I saw her. You've lost your chance before, now, that you found her and you still love her, grab it and tell her how you feel for her... Goodluck.:)