FM the hurt that don't go away

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I could never figure it out, it start about 15mths ago. The thing that scared me most about it was thinking it was my heart. I used to get a strong fast pulse, shakes, numbness and pains in my chest and my left arm. After numerous times of calling the medics, visiting my GP they told me due to the fact I suffer with Bipolar it was Panic attacks. Two months later I met my partner and moved to a different GP who told me it was the muscles in my ribs and do I play any impact sports. I don't play any sports and went away thinking the Doctor knows best. By now the pain was getting worse and was happening in other parts of my body, mainly down the left hand side. After going back and forth due to symptoms getting worse and new ones coming into play such as, increased pain in one or all parts of my body, numbness anywhere, pins and needles, sickness, constipation, diarrhea, wanting to pee more, dizziness and stabbing or electric shock sensations.... what was it. I started thinking all sorts, brain tumor, cancer or heart attack. In the end I was told I'd Fibromyalgia either for a long time or the rest of my life. There's no treatment for the illness just the symptoms and even then its guess work. No one knows exactly what cause's it. I'll have good days, it'll not kill you, but then I'll have flare up until it decides to settle down on it's own, but for the most part I'll be like this. Can you imagine after a terrible childhood, getting everything I want in life, a partner and a daughter on the way.... I was mortified. My day starts with stiff pain and carries on with pain through out the day. As the day go's on I may get a few other bits of the above thrown in. My life has changed dramatically and I never know how it strike. My partner is supportive, but she works. There's very little in this country anyway to be able deal with it. People due to the fact nothing is visible take a very relaxed view and some don't believe in what your saying. Apart form the support group I go to, I live in a very pain, ill and lonely road. I just hope that at some point in the future, more is done to understand and then to be able to treat this very nasty illness.