I Hate Christmas
@chipesterkhan (2925)
Philippines
December 29, 2010 3:23am CST
I pulled back on releasing this cause I didn't want to dampen anyone else' mood. I went through the motions of greeting everyone a Merry Christmas (although what I really meant was "I hope you have a wonderful day, everyday and peace to all mankind" it was just shorter to say "Merry Christmas), going to mass, giving gifts to loved ones and singing Christmas carols.
What they don't know is:
I hate Christmas.
I hate what it stands for.
But I won't tell you not to love it or to hate it like I do.
You see, we have different situations.
I was 6 years old when I realized there was no Santa Claus. I crawled under the couch after my mother tucked us in bed on Christmas Eve. I was so curious about Santa Claus and wanted to see how he'd manage to place toys in every tree from Asia to Africa in just one night.
An hour went by with no activity.
Soon enough I saw shadows moving and footsteps. I peeked out from under the couch and saw my mom placing gifts on the tree.
All labeled, from Santa.
Christmas was never the same after that.
My mom died December 1, 1997. I was 18. She had been sick for some time and I grew up fast because of that. I was working all the time just to help keep things afloat. My dad was torn between caring for business, caring for us his children and caring for his wife. I decided to grow up and help him out. I didn't know it was a very heavy load.
While my friends were out partying and having fun I was running our pharmacy. I lost track of people because of that.
Christmas was not as happy as it used to be when she died.
So i've crossed it off my list of special ocassions.
I'm not telling you to hate it. I hate it because of the circumstances in my life.
Wait a minute. I should really think about this more.
Maybe I don't hate it.
Maybe I'm just sad and I can't move on yet. I know it's been more than 10 years since she died and way too long since I
realized that the symbol for Christmas (Santa) was a lie, but I don't want to come off as some Grinch or Scrooge.
I have to start liking it soon. I have a nephew now, who still believes in Santa and maybe soon enough i'll have kids of my
own and I want them to be able to believe in something as ridiculous as a jolly fat person covering the entire Earth in one
night powered by cookies and milk on a herd of reindeer and a sled.
So that's my resolution for 2011:
I will not hate Christmas. I will not hate Christmas. I will not hate Christmas. I will not hate Christmas. I will not hate Christmas. I will not hate Christmas. I will not hate Christmas. I will not hate Christmas. I will not hate Christmas. (You get the idea right? otherwise I'd have to repeat it a hundred times)
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6 responses
@saphrina (31551)
• South Africa
29 Dec 10
Hi sweetie.
First of all, i don't think you hate it.
I think you cannot stand it for what you went thru.
Sad to think how most have to grow up faster and with such devastation in life.
Sorry you had to go thru that.
I am sure you will get that christmas spirit back.
You just have to believe in it.
It normally comes from the heart.
Good luck to you.
TATA.
@chipesterkhan (2925)
• Philippines
30 Dec 10
yeah i don't hate it
it's just associated to some sad moments in my life and that's why i don't enjoy it
@mandywilks (191)
•
29 Dec 10
I am so sorry that you have had such bad experiences of Chrtistmas.
It must be hard seeeing other people celebrating it feeling as you do.
I hope and pray that eventually you manage to shake off your sad and unhappy experiences and learnn to enjoy the festivities!!
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@chipesterkhan (2925)
• Philippines
30 Dec 10
seeing people enjoy is not hard for me
i just don't feel anything about christmas
i've noticed that i become apathetic during the christmas season
i hope i will be able to get over this
@rogue13xmen13 (14402)
• United States
30 Dec 10
Scrooge! Grinch!
Just kidding, but seriously, Christmas isn't that bad. I love Christmas. The best thing ever happened to me this Christmas. My insurance company sent me a letter on Christmas Eve. No co-payments and I don't have to pay for my medication for six months. That relieves so much stress off of my mother and I right now because I cannot afford my health care. I am a college student, making hardly any money at all, and I usually have to choose between medication and the necessities every single month. This was the first Christmas that I actually believe in miracles because I didn't know how I was going to survive. I can't hate Christmas.
I think that people truly forget about the real meaning of Christmas. Family, health and food. I got my health this Christmas.
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@chipesterkhan (2925)
• Philippines
30 Dec 10
wow
a real christmas miracle
good for you rogue
i hope more blessings come your way
and i hope you earn at least enough here on mylot and whatever other online activities you do
bah! humbug! hahahaha
@eileenleyva (27560)
• Philippines
29 Dec 10
Hi chip, some meditation, huh! Life is tough really, but it is tougher to those who lose their mothers at a young age. I am glad though that you turned out to be a good person. It is not that you hate Christmas. Perhaps you just missed your mom and the times that she wanted you to be happy, like when she put the gifts from Santa. chip, am sure that your mom is smiling down upon you right now, and is glad that her little girl is all grown up and even ready to have a family of her own...Merry Christmas!
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@chipesterkhan (2925)
• Philippines
30 Dec 10
merry christmas
(to the tune of britney spears song)
... i'm not a girl, not yet a woman...
i'm a guy
and i'd like to think that she is looking down upon us (her kids) and smiling.
@Baluyadav (3643)
• India
29 Dec 10
hi,To whom satisfy you have started this discussion i didn't get it.Who are we to talk/feel/question to somebody else who are not visible or hypothetical...
After all we are living creatures created by Male and Female lining creatures just like any animal/insect/bird...
To satisfy ourselves we have created God...
Why so many Gods in this world...
Or Gods also divided the earth just like Kings...Hindu/Muslim/Cristian...????..what are doing all these Gods..what is their duty.Is it only duty for them to support human beings..then what is the hell with?????
I hope you understand fact without God's fear???
@chipesterkhan (2925)
• Philippines
30 Dec 10
i'm currently still scratching my head
been scratching it since 8AM after i read your response
i started this on a selfish note. yes, selfish. to declare to myself that i hated christmas, along the way i realized that i did not hate it. i just did not enjoy it anymore.
next, why are we talking about God?
or Gods in your case?
not believing in Santa does not make anyone an atheist.
i believe in the existence of a supreme being.
and next time please respond in a manner where i or others can understand.
you don't have to use big words, simple ones will do
the simpler the better
cause what's the use of using big words if they don't convey a sensible meaning?
boop boop be doo wah
happy new year
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@mandywilks (191)
•
29 Dec 10
I don't understand your reponse at all.
This member has obvioulsy had personal problems that has stopped them enjoying Christmas - your reponse just doesn't make sense - they don't need preaching at they need compassion!!
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@oldchem1 (8132)
•
29 Dec 10
I think that to lose someone near to Christmas must be the most awful experience and I can understand how you feel about Christmas.
I do hope that in time you learn to enjoy Christmas and to join in the magic and fun.
Have you ever read this from the 1897 New York Sun, I think that it is lovely:
[i]"DEAR EDITOR: I am 8 years old.
"Some of my little friends say there is no Santa Claus.
"Papa says, 'If you see it in THE SUN it's so.'
"Please tell me the truth; is there a Santa Claus?
"VIRGINIA O'HANLON.
"115 WEST NINETY-FIFTH STREET."
VIRGINIA, your little friends are wrong. They have been affected by the skepticism of a skeptical age. They do not believe except [what] they see. They think that nothing can be which is not comprehensible by their little minds. All minds, Virginia, whether they be men's or children's, are little. In this great universe of ours man is a mere insect, an ant, in his intellect, as compared with the boundless world about him, as measured by the intelligence capable of grasping the whole of truth and knowledge.
Yes, VIRGINIA, there is a Santa Claus. He exists as certainly as love and generosity and devotion exist, and you know that they abound and give to your life its highest beauty and joy. Alas! how dreary would be the world if there were no Santa Claus. It would be as dreary as if there were no VIRGINIAS. There would be no childlike faith then, no poetry, no romance to make tolerable this existence. We should have no enjoyment, except in sense and sight. The eternal light with which childhood fills the world would be extinguished.
Not believe in Santa Claus! You might as well not believe in fairies! You might get your papa to hire men to watch in all the chimneys on Christmas Eve to catch Santa Claus, but even if they did not see Santa Claus coming down, what would that prove? Nobody sees Santa Claus, but that is no sign that there is no Santa Claus. The most real things in the world are those that neither children nor men can see. Did you ever see fairies dancing on the lawn? Of course not, but that's no proof that they are not there. Nobody can conceive or imagine all the wonders there are unseen and unseeable in the world.
You may tear apart the baby's rattle and see what makes the noise inside, but there is a veil covering the unseen world which not the strongest man, nor even the united strength of all the strongest men that ever lived, could tear apart. Only faith, fancy, poetry, love, romance, can push aside that curtain and view and picture the supernal beauty and glory beyond. Is it all real? Ah, VIRGINIA, in all this world there is nothing else real and abiding.
No Santa Claus! Thank God! he lives, and he lives forever. A thousand years from now, Virginia, nay, ten times ten thousand years from now, he will continue to make glad the heart of childhood.[/i]
http://www.newseum.org/yesvirginia/
I do hope that soon you to will be enjoying Happy Christmas's again!!
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@chipesterkhan (2925)
• Philippines
30 Dec 10
excellent answer to an 8 year old's question
i hope that when she gets older, she'll take it as something humorous and appreciate that the one who answered took the time out to try and reassure her that santa is real