Stay with me even if...

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When a relationship ends, we always say that we should move on. And moving on is a difficult process. Getting over somebody is not easy. But what happens if that somebody doesn't want you to get over him? Here's the situation for those who would care to read on.. I met a guy last year. It was a whirlwind romance, I met him and fell in love with him, it only took 3 days for me to give him my whole heart. And we were perfect for each other, but like most whirlwind romances with no definite foundation, he and I gave up after our first major adversity. To make it short, we broke up shortly after. Not because we stopped loving each other, but because it wasn't time for us. And so I moved on, focused on my job and I moved up during that time. No time for love. Once in a while I would think about him, wonder how things would have been if we didn't give up. After several months, I told myself I was finally able to move on. I started dating and finally found somebody who made me smile again. And this guy and I were okay. Then out of nowhere, "HE" came back. We both know that we missed out our chance. He knows that I was happy with somebody else. We decided to just be friends. We talked on the phone for hours and hours... like before. I knew he had something else in mind other than being just friends.. and I didn't mind it. Finally we both decided to see each other after all these months.. and seeing him confirmed my worst fears. I still love him. I had to break up with my man, in order for 'HIM' and me to have that second chance. And boy did we give it a try. But it just couldn't work. We are now two different people, unlike before. What used to be perfect is now in constant conflict. And so we had to both say goodbye to each other. And yes it hurt me, like it hurt me before. But I had to move on, it's easier this time since I've already moved on that first time.. but now "HE" is back. He just wants to stay... without defining what we are. It's unfair, and I can't stay under that condition, but I find myself still drawn to him... and I guess the same goes for 'HIM'. We both know we are not good for each other, so why do we keep on coming back to each other? I know what I should do, I should run away as far as I could, but is it the right thing to do? Part of me says, give it another try... because I truly believe that this could be 'it' for me.. it's just not the right time.. yet. But having him around.. it's not good for us. We forget ourselves and become lost in the world that we both created, until reality starts knocking again and that's when everything crumbles. I'm getting tired of all the goodbyes and 'let's try again'...