Remains the pain

Philippines
January 13, 2011 11:00am CST
I really still love my ex-boyfriend.I keeps listening those hurts songs and I always think of him.I wanna move on but I don't know where and when to start. He hurt me so much, he fooled me in front of his family but why I can' able to hate him and just forget him?My love for him will still would be more prioritize. Despite what he'd done to me,I really and deeply in love with him.I always include and part him of my life even his gone.And still suffering the pain and getting big. I let the pain remain as long as his still remain in my memories even not him.I am contented on having fantasy on him.
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@rameshchow (4426)
• India
13 Jan 11
See my friend, Just think once "is problem important to you or person(your lover) important to you?". And Time can do anything, Time can break your silence. "Your heart can send some electromagentic signal(which are invisible) to his heart, true love can win". All the best. Be happy. Keep smiling(when ever you thought about him, bit of smile rises on your face...hahaha, that can break the distance)
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• Philippines
14 Jan 11
I know,maybe only time could heal all of my pain.But as of now,as days passes I am more suffering in pain yet loving him more.When I think of him,he'd still put a smile on my face yet hurting and suffering.I am so tired feeling in this way,I want to make a very biggest and stupid mistake but I am afraid that will just regret in the end. I can't control my love for him, every second, every minutes ,every hour and everyday. Yeah, it's 24/7 all I do is think of him our happy and painful memories.I have no time to do my task in home and obligations.Just because of him. I keep on crying every night,I am getting obsessed and insane. I hope someday I can move on,If only I could approach the time to heal the wound.
• India
14 Jan 11
No my dear friend, i know, it is really tough problem, The only person gives you happiness is your lover, No body can full fill your pain. God can change his heart. He will come for you....
• Philippines
15 Jan 11
Yeah, I know but I don't think his mine will change his very happy in where his with be.But I don't think his really for me.
• India
14 Jan 11
First of all, I would like you to read this http://www.bukisa.com/articles/351197_moving-on-after-a-break-up and understand all the phases of break up. What you are feeling inside you is not love. It's just an attachment that you need to get over. The sooner you understand this the easier life will be. You don't need to hate your boyfriend though he really did a hateful thing. You can't get out of depression because you don't want to. You will move on when you'll start having a sincere wish for it. You need to understand that you were never meant for each other. You need to deal with the humiliation as well. You think that you've lost your respect so you're suffering from lack of self esteem. True love never make you feel humiliated, deserted or cheated. Print out the article that I gave you here. Read it every day. Believe me, so far you haven't tried enough. Try harder. Watch yourself get over each of the phases mentioned in that article. Do it now, before it's too late.
• Philippines
16 Jan 11
thanks for the article you've shared with me I've read it with all understanding and open mind and heart.It was right!I know it seems very difficult and only I can able to help myself first I know someday I can. But what I really felt was love, I loved him so much but I know he didn't.The pain is still fresh even it's months ago.I have also to consider myself,I know it takes time.Yeah, I want it rush to move on but I know it's can't.I am trying to mend my heart now.I know,only myself could help me to overcome all the struggles I am having now.I already understand and forgive him even his not asking for apology,as well as myself.I always bear in my mind that, maybe it was happened because were not meant for each other and as natural way.But,unfortunately I can't still accept.I am trying hard and my best,maybe I was hurt to time.Time may only heal my pain and maybe all i should do is to wait for that time.I know it will takes time but there's nothing I can do,no matter how hard I'll try still I can't. I only believe that only time will heal.I don't want also to force nor make myself believe that I'm okay and has been move on.I can't cheat myself and a good pretender. I want someday to give smile without all bitterness.
• India
16 Jan 11
Time is the best healer. However, if you leave everything on time it will take time. If you can buttress the process of recovery with your own active efforts, it will heal lot faster. From your words, I know that you've read and completely understood the article that I wrote. There is another small thing that I'd like to add. I am glad to hear that you finally forgave him. This is the most important step in your recovery. You can't forget anyone until you forgive him for his wrongdoings. Believe me, you're way stronger than what you think you are. You have already advanced yourself in the process of recovery. With God beside you, you will not only live but also love again. May God always be with you and carry you through this turbulent storm.
• Philippines
22 Jan 11
Yeah, only time may heal my pain but I have also to admit that it really takes time.I know also that, the best way is to help myself but I can make things rush because I know it's an illusion.I might still end up a loser and bitter.How can I able to really move on,if Im just forcing myself.I want to live in truth even it hurts.I know, someday I can.
@thaMARKER (2503)
• Philippines
14 Jan 11
that's sad.. :( but good thing your relationship is over now. it wont much if everything's going wrong and you're still committed. it's really hard to forget the past especially the good times. it takes time to get over it, whatever went wrong between you both. in due time, you'll be fine. just keep living. try to engage yourself with some interesting activities. talk to people, friends or not. just keep yourself bury but dont deprive yourself from enough sleep/rest. you can cry but don't make it a habit. if talking about what happened can help, go ahead but don't prolong the story. it wont help.. and smile. even if it hurts but it'll help.. you'll see. ;)
• Philippines
31 Jan 11
Yah, i know if i would like to stay in our relationship i will suffer more.But, at least I am not lonely but full of bitterness.I know,it now over but no matter I will convinced myself that what is done is done and past is past.I can't still accept the fact. I've tried to make myself busy in other stuff and really try to avoid being alone so that I could not have time to think of him.I don't know the more I avoid the more it will call by the mind and heart.I tried also to avoid my habits of sleeping and crying every time just to stay away from pain.But it will brings me more there,I can't control myself.I just let myself to get so tired of loving and waiting until one day it will quit.I have no choice,I can't pretend that I'm okay.I've been that before and now when it's my fourth time to fall in love and gets broken I really don't know where I could start all over again.I just let,time heals.
@mods196621 (3652)
• Philippines
14 Jan 11
Yes pain is still there when you won't try to forget him and memories are always there when you always back into your sweet memory with him. To help to forget him remember the pain he does to you all the memories that he makes you cry and don't remember those happy moments. Try also to go out and find those friends that gives you happiness not sadness. Go and try to vacations travels. And most important is don't remember him. If there is somebody who courted you why don't give a try to find another. But before anything else again I ask you is he your boyfriend or real partner as a husband? Well if yes as a husband so just relax but as a boyfriend only well try to find a new one. But don't worry every thing will be alright and going smooth for now just relax. You can do it..
• Philippines
25 Jan 11
the real pain doesn't only heal in a second moments,it will takes time.Every time you remember your moments that you've been together.
• Philippines
27 Jan 11
I really tries to release of the pain and sorrow.But, I can't help myself I am wanted to help myself to forget him.But as long as days passes the more I think of him and loved him.I want to forgive him,but I think my heart is not yet ready and I think this may take long time.I hope I can do it.I can't even give time to my friends to have fun but I give time so much to grief everyday and every hour.I am so tired,my world is just turning on him.I am not happy with my life right now, really!!!There is only one thing in my life,heart and mind and it's him.I want him back.I am still hoping someday he'd come back to me. I can't help myself but to cry and do nothing.
• China
14 Jan 11
i think i can understand your this feeling.because i sometimes miss my ex-boyfriend,but not like your's serious.i donot know how to change this situation too.but i think we can slowly fade from his memory.
• Philippines
22 Jan 11
If what you feel for that person is true love then it won't fade even many years will pass.I, since the time I've started to love him my love for him was everyday added even he hurts me most of the time.I know, you might say I am too young to feel true love but this is what I really felt.I know,he does not love me the way I loved him.They say if you really sincere loving someone who won't ask anything in return.I know, I just make things more complicated but this is how I feel.This how the way I love, I can be martyr and can wait forever. I can't able to lie in myself that why, I am just facing an living the reality.Maybe through in my illusions and fantasy I can able to move on faster when I gets tired.
@lizmik143 (137)
• Philippines
14 Jan 11
That's right you feel the pain. But instead of looking back and holding on, start to let go. I think that's the best you can do.
• Philippines
22 Jan 11
And that's the hardest thing to do.
@clocks123 (1225)
• United States
13 Jan 11
Your ex-boyfriend hurt you terribly. he dosen't love or care about you. you are a special person, and you don't need him in your life. i understand you still have feelings for him, but it is over. you opened yourself up to him and eventually these feelings for him will fade. you deserve better and YOU will find the man who really loves and cares about you. the best to you.
• Philippines
14 Jan 11
I hope one day,when I wake up I find myself complete and no longer bitter.I would be very happy,If I can give a smile for myself that is real and without hiding any pain inside.I know,he never loved me it's really hurts knowing you've sacrificed so hard and your almost dying just because of him. I don't think there would someone will come that will truly love me.Maybe,they just let me feel it in start but in the middle I know they will do the same thing.To left me hanging behind with a deep wound and broken heart.I do not believe in love anymore.I don't think it's still exist for me.I've been hurt for four times and it takes years for me before to move on.I can't afford anymore to get hurt all over again.It was never easy for me to taking way of happiness and completeness.I've encounter a thorn and wrong way.I've ruined my life before I was move on.Now,I can't fight the struggles anymore.It would better for me to quit,because I know I will end up a lose and just cry.I really hate it so much.
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
14 Jan 11
Hi Krieyszel, I am sorry you are going through this. How long has it been? I understand that you are deeply hurt. Still, he hurt and humiliated you in front of his family. A part of you should be angry enough to want nothing more to do with him. Your last two sentences make me think that you don't want to get over him. You say you are content with him being just a fantasy. I hope this passes for you and that you realize that you deserve the real thing and a guy that loves you back.
• Philippines
13 Jan 11
Greetings! Girl, you should move on if it brings you pain. There are lots of guys out there. Maybe it happened because someone better is meant for you. Don't lose hope. I also experience the pain of broking up. I think my experience is worst than yours. Don't feel hopeless. There are lots of girls out there who experiences more pain than you. I can relate because I also love a guy now but I don't know how he feels towards me. It hurts every time I see him. I'm crazy crazy for him. Anyway, he's just now a part of your life. Move on. Let him go then if he comes back, then he's yours. Its happy to be single. I've been single for a very long time and I feel so happy but I still miss having a boyfriend but its better to be single because you won't feel pain anymore. In going to a relationship, we couldn't avoid having a problem or breaking up. Its normal. Of all the many couples in this world, only few goes strong for a very long time. If you want to move on, have time for yourself. Treat yourself. Go shopping, make yourself more pretty, do whatever you want. As you go on your way, Maybe Mr. Right will come? :) Be independent, fulfill your dreams. Guys like independent woman. Then you don't know? Maybe he'll come back and run after you? That would be good if you still love him that time. ANYWAY, you can do it. Happy mylotting! :)
• Philippines
14 Jan 11
Thanks, I know it's part of love because love hurts.I just that, no matter how I will convinced myself that maybe there's someone better will come and it's really not just meant for me.But I can't I tried to give time to have a peace of mind and to really understand what happened between us.My situation was very worst if only you know, I fought for him in my family and friends. I've prove how much I love him even, were far apart.I've proved it to his family that I really love her.I've cried to my mother asking her help to be the bridge we we broke up before.I also cried talking to her mother begging that may help me to we will be back together. Maybe,I can't just accept that I've sacrifices a lot,I've ruined my parents trust just for him.Even, all he do is to hurt me and just once in a blue moon will tell me he loves me.No matter I feel so angry to him,just a simple smile and little sweet will ease all of it. Every time I think of it, I can't accept I deserved to be hurt for of all the love,care and sacrifices I done for him.Despite of he just taken me for granted.I know I am very fool and stupid.I've given him all my heart,soul,trust and love.And it's all ruined and lost.I really don't know where to find it again for me to able to finally let go and totally move on.
@dong88 (795)
• China
14 Jan 11
Because true love,so severe pain.I had a similar experience.Ihis is normal.To time it right,only time can heal the pain of our hearts.Bless you!
• Philippines
16 Jan 11
yeah right only time heals.There such things that we want to understand right away but there's time we could fully make understand.We do have a lot of asking why's?.And what we want is a immediate answer. I know it's really part in every relationship because this things will makes us a better and stronger person.To able face the trials and test.But, it's still hurts so much.When a person get hurt,there's no acceptable reason they wanna hear.Because, all they know is that they give love and soul but they were just cheated and been hurt to the parson they value and love so much. I think,we don't deserve to be hurt but I know no even how good we are we will still be hurt.For love is hurt.
@tvarasu10 (101)
• India
14 Jan 11
Though it is difficult to forget your love for ex-boyfriend it is necessary for you to look other good things in life.Concentrate on yoga and other actvities and in course of time your pain will fade away.
• Philippines
22 Jan 11
Yeah, I am trying my best to make myself busy but I don't know why no matter how I will tried to keep myself busy and try to focus things just to avoid thinking of him.If only I just can able to fade my love for him and if only my love for him is swallow but what I feel is true love.My heart is breaking everytime I think that his happy with someone.But I also, do believed that if you really love that person then you'll give his happiness a freedom.Setting free of someone we really loved only proves how we love and respect their happiness.That's what we called taking risk , a sacrifice which could we hurt us so much and leave us.I really hurts and pain,but rather to be selfish and mine someone whom you didn't owned.It hurts more knowing the one we love is with us,but unhappy.Things may be difficult to get along but we should be fair. Right now,I doing my best but still I can't rush anything to just be blown by the wind.If only I could,but I still have to wait for the right time to heal the pain I am burdening.
• Netherlands
14 Jan 11
It takes time to think less of someone whom you loved. You can't forget that person, it is just that you will learn to think less of them in the course of time. But you have to see it this way, if you to were meant to be then he would still be your man. So maybe he was just not the right person for you and you will get a far more better person in your love who truly loves you.
• Philippines
22 Jan 11
Yeah right, but right now I know, Im just learning to live my life without his presence.But not my love for him,things not so easy to understand and accept.But, I know it will mend taking a long time.The scar always remained and never be erase.I am hoping someday he'll come back,because despite of the pain and hurts me gave me I would still accept him with all my heart.The only thing I know is, I can't live without him and I can't learn to live without him.It's hard to breath every time I think and face the reality that his gone he left me.But he is my life and I always wanted him to be part of me.But,if he really wasn't meant for me then, all I should do is to accept it.There's nothing I can do with it, I can't even buy his heart and trust.I am just hoping that, I can able to help myself to forgive him without his apology.