I cant believe i am a MOM

There is line from the book "Where The Heart Is" by Billie Letts (an Oprah pick) where the young mother says she feels like she is a kid playing mommy. This character was a teenage mother but that line struck me because of how true it was. I am 48 years old and have two teenage daughters and sometimes I still feel that way. I watch my hands as they perform these adult tasks and still marvel that I am a grown up. I mentioned this to my mother not too long ago (she is 86, has grandchildren and great-grandchildren) and she said she still feels that way. My daughters are 14 and 17 and I am in awe of these wonderful people I have created (with the help of God) and raised to be good people. As much as I wanted to be a mother since the time I was young, once I became a mother I didn't think I was doing a very good job. When I became ill that feeling was stronger. But I look at how great my kids are and realize I have done something right. I can't help but wonder once they are gone that I will revert back to being immature again. Honestly, I am still immature but that makes life with my kids fun. I guess that's why we feel guys never grow up. They (and I am generalizing here) don't feel the same love and responsibility that a mother does. I can still remember when my kids were little and how I could eat them up. Today I look at them and want to grab them and hold them in my arms on my lap like I did when they were little. I miss those times and wish I could go back, if only for a short time. There are so many different stages of their life, which means different stages of mothering as well. Even after they leave the nest we will still be their mothers. When my daughter got her first boyfriend she rolled her eyes at me over my protectiveness. I told her to be patient with me that I was new at this. She actually understood and let me ask what I needed to ask. I'm rambling but I just love my kids and wish I could have had more but after having tried so long with my first husband - unsuccessfully, I am lucky to have the two I have. God has blessed me tremendously. Hold your kids close. They'll be on their own before you know it.

hi there! I am a new mom. I just gave birth last year and my daughter is already 10 months now. I enjoyed every single minute I spent with her. Watching Barney and Dora also became an entertainment to me.

My daughter is three and I feel the same way. We are big wiggled fans here. Also my friends tigger and pooh, mickey mouse club house, blues clues. There are just so many and on black Friday we went and saw her first movie in the theater. We saw tangled I just love spending time with her and being their for all of her firsts. It is such fun to be a mommy. I am dreading the first day of preschool that is fast approaching.