My Mum died

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I wanted to get this off my chest... Just before christmas my mum died. I'm only 26, and she was almost exactly double my age. It was a huge shock for me - well every one else as well. I'd only spoken to her the day before, she was fine. Well we hadnt been getting on for a few years. We'd chat for a few days, then someone would step out of line, and we'd be back to not speaking again. Back in October, my parents came to my house on my birthday to drop a little present through my door. They thought we'd be out, but we were in and my other half invited them in. So they came inside and we had a little chat, then we all went out in their car and they took us for a late evening meal, and it was just generally nice. So when they dropped us back home, my mum asked if we'd want to go out again, and she told us to go to see them because they'd like to. Well we finally had chance to go round to see them, and that was on 2nd of December. I had a really long chat to my Mum in the kitchen, and managed to tell her all the things that I'd wanted to. I dont actually remember the last time she was so chatty with me and I felt like her little girl again. In the middle of December I needed an operation. Nothing massive, but I knew my Mum would worry so I rang her on the Tuesday to tell her I was going in On the Thursday. She came to our house to see me with my Dad that evening and they bought be some slipper boots for when I went to hospital. When I was in hospital my fiancee called her all the time to let her know how I was doing. I think she appreciated that. I came home late on the Friday, and on the Saturday I decided that I'd call my Mum to tell her that I was OK. My fiancee said that I didn't need to because he'd already told her, but I had something in the back of my mind and felt that I really should. I called her and had a good 30 min chat to her and made sure she knew I was OK. I told her I loved her when I said goodbye. The next day, Sunday, she sent me a text message. Along the lines of 'thanks for the lovely chat yesterday' etc. I got a phone call early the next morning from my Dad to say that she had chest pains in the afternoon on Sunday and was rushed to hospital. She had 3 blocked arteries though and there was nothing they could have done. I'm so happy I had those few little chats with her before she died. I feel like there was nothing that was left unsaid and that she left this world knowing I was safe and happy. I never thought I could miss her so much but I really do. I feel that she knew something bad was going to happen and made her peace before it did. Do you have a story about a relative who has passed? How do you feel now? Any regrets?