How to live when you got nothing
By wongchoiyee
@wongchoiyee (7413)
Malaysia
January 26, 2011 1:34pm CST
When you all read this, I have thought what is the purpose of living in this lonely planet? I have no jobs, no love and no friends outside of my home. I have father who supports me but he is 53 and I am scared I won't be able to stand on my own feet when I have regular depression symptoms. I feel scared sometime of the day but when I sleep then I wake up and all my fears went away. That's why I don't have a normal schedule and I am not able to make money outside my home except if I have a freelance work. But then my depression stuck with me all the time. What should I do now? I am thinking of dying but I am scared of the pain.
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19 responses
@AMain23 (25)
• United States
26 Jan 11
Hey there,
I am so sorry to hear about your situation. I can not imagine how you are feeling and what you are going through. I am sure you have seeked medical treatment for your depression? If so was nothing productive in stabalizing your moods? Medications or therapy wise?
What exactly out of life do you want for yourself? Do you want friends or are you content without them? It sounds like you want a career but have trouble finding something that can fit in with your downs. Is there a hobby you are good at it? Making jewelry or even a sport which you have experience with?? A friend of mine is good at hockey and he teaches private lessons for over 100 dollars a hour. Everyone has their own nitch and something they are good at. Sometimes it just takes a lot of digging and searching to find it.
Also, have you thought about joining a counseling group. You may be able to find some friends their who know what you are going through with similiar situations. Some of them may have some excellent feedback to provide you and success stories of how they changed their lives around.
I wish you the best and hang in there. You will find your way eventually.
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@AMain23 (25)
• United States
26 Jan 11
You certainly would be more helpful and be more knowledble then I seeing as how you have gone through it. It sounds like you have a strong personality and managed to get through the worst part of it. I agree with you that it is not a disease. I mid mention it as a medical thing due to the fact the it could be from a chemical imbalance i your brain whish can be stabilized ( not cured ) by certain medications. From what I understand some of the side effects with those medicinces can be worse then not taking any meds.
How long did it take you to get over the intitial hump of depression? Were you able to maintain friendships and a career? I always found this to be such an intresting subject. I for one do not suffer from it but I truly feel for those who do. I would like to understand it better.
@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
27 Jan 11
I was on the bed for long 8 months in 2008 and still stay at home due to my illness. I re-started working from home as I cannot go out and have a normal life. The pain was unbearable and so was the fact that I was newly married and needed money to share the financial expenses, do my contributions towards my family and the doctors had said - the rest of my life I would have to spend on BED!!!
I do not have that strong personality yet and the depression at times takes over me but I have learned how to cope with it... Things work differently for different people and for me this works. For most of the day I am all alone in the house and this adds to the depression coming back at times.
For friends - I have all virtual friends (here at MyLot) and a couple in the real world today.
The regular career was ended abruptly but now I have restarted some work- I do content writing, web hosting, website development and even teach a few students who can wait and adjust according to my illness. I did spend a lot of time reading these stuff and acquiring skills to help me in all this.
All this because that moment when I was going to kill myself I realized that I am not going to be a loser, I have my wife, my parents and they already are feeling miserable due to my illness...my killing myself will just add to their grief that they could not do anything to help me... And I DO NOT WANT TO PAIN ANYONE... I HAVE NO RIGHT TO HURT.
@lizmik143 (137)
• Philippines
27 Jan 11
Wongchoiyee, depression strikes to just anybody. Whenever I have that kind of feeling I pray and I pour out all to God what is in my heart until such time that I feel okay and calm which happens every time. But I also do something to fight the depression. I change my thought patterns. Sometimes the more we think on something depressing, the more we are depressed. I believe you can fight depression also.
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@Chastised_Dreamz (559)
• United States
27 Jan 11
I agree. It's very important to change your thought patterns and think about positive things rather than the negative. I realized that when I was younger and I was upset I would always listen to depressing music. I was more drawn to rock music because of the lyrics and because they were a reflection of what I felt. I'm not saying that doing so is wrong, but when I stopped this pattern of behavior and started listening to "happier" music I saw that my mood got positive quicker.
P.S. Thanks for the comment above :)
@lhenpaule (495)
• Philippines
27 Jan 11
There's more to life! And definitely there are a lot of people who will wish they are you. There are those who are disabled, who suffers from cancer and other terminal disease, but doing everything to continue living. Don't think about dying. It is not for you to decide on that. There's more to life. You have your computer, you can do a lot of better things on that. Communicate with others, inspire others, say good things about people and the things around. Do it, but start within you. Count your blessings...you have normal physical attributes, you have a loving father, you have a peaceful home, friends and relative who care for you, etc. etc.... You may probably not notice it, but try to think of it and count your blessings. Try to feel good within you, and from there, reach out to others thru your computer. Words are powerful, make use of your good thoughts to inspire a lot. You will appreciate life more once you become a blessing to others. Be happy! There's more to life.
@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
29 Jan 11
You really need to see a doctor that will be able to help you with medications that will help you to be in a better state in your life. That is the first thing that you should do. In addition to that, if you find a doctor that determines that you won't ever be able to support yourself because of your mental illness, then they will be able to help you apply for disability and then you won't have to lean so heavily on your parents.
@ptower76 (1616)
• United States
27 Jan 11
It is really sad to hear such a young and beautiful person talking like this. I know that the realities of life can sometimes become overpowering and at times we may begin to lose hope. But life is also full of satisifying and rewarding experiences also. Depression has been diagnosed as a medical problem and perhaps you should inquire if your truly suffering from clinical depression. Perhaps by treating those symptoms you can begin to develop an optimistic outlook on life.
@goodhunter (334)
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27 Jan 11
Hi, all you have to do is concentrate on your everyday life. You should counter act all the negative thoughts and substitute it with positive things. Always believe that all problems will not go away if you do not analyze why there is such a problem and find ways in solving it.
@djbtol (5493)
• United States
27 Jan 11
Little by little, step by step I think things can improve for you. Today, just find one little thing to be grateful for. Find one little thing that is a positive step to make your life better and try to find one little thing you can do for someone else.
Tomorrow, do all three again. Eventually your mindset will change, and you will find some peace and hope.
@housechaos7 (609)
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27 Jan 11
I am sorry to hear that you feel so low you must try and be positive and build you confidence to a better lifestyle,there are many support groups for people who are depressed and lonley try joinin one and dont think of dying that would be a waste of a life.
@yspmyl (3435)
• Malaysia
27 Jan 11
No doubt to live in this world is hard, and everyone have their own problem to solve. I do not have a depression, so I might not know how you feel.
Many people like to think that their situation is the worst one in this world and there will be no one can help them anymore. This is so common that everyone will think about themselves. If you try to see the world with an open eye, you will be able to see many people out there that their situation are much worst than you but they still fight to live.
Here are some example where I do believe that you should have see or heard about those children in Africa, many of them are starving and they are still fight to live.
Look around the street, you will find many beggar that have no home to go back, they have to sleep under the bridge, they have to sleep on the chair of bus station. They have to show their face to everyone that they do not have job and still they live for tomorrow, they never give up easily.
There are many more examples that their situation is much worst than you.
So, how do you think now, are you feeling much better since your life are still not too bad, isn't it?
So, setup a target and work towards it, and one day, you will be successful and confident. Read more motivation book that will boost your self confident.
@deriellevc73 (982)
• Philippines
27 Jan 11
hello wongchoiyee!
We all come into this world with nothing and will leave same, with nothing. People have jobs and friends, because they search and made effort to have it. While some people may get it off easy, being born with a silver spoon in their mouth, most of us have to toil to achieve our goals. You have no friends? make an effort to make friends, there's many out there, if you're just willing to let them. No job? you can certainly find one if you try hard enough. As to love, well, we could always have love even if we have no romantic love. we could channel our love to all the people in our neighborhood, help them in any way we can. Maybe in that manner you will also gain friends. Depression was probably intensified by your being a loner, so i assumed from your post. You have to go out to the world and be with people, to dispel your fears. Oh, the real world is a scary place to live. But we humans, were made to be able to face all the challenge, well, most of them anyway.
Life is too beautiful to be spent on misery and negative thoughts. You should try living. Be free with your negative thoughts, with your fears. Let your creativity flows. You must be creative and talented since you write well. Focus on that talent, nurture it, make friends and you will soon find yourself leading a real life. Oh, you will get your fair share of disappointments but its not enough really to cause intense depression. You must help yourself, because no one else can..and maybe no one else will..because you're not letting them..open up..
@jornz87 (139)
• Philippines
27 Jan 11
the best thing to do to overcome out from that fears is face your fears..how would you know that you do it if you don't have to face it..
try to face it, and fight that fears so that you can move on from that..
@Lucyalicia92 (670)
• United States
27 Jan 11
You can go to a doctor and get some anti - depprecent medicine. My grandmother takes it and it really helps her with her depression.
@sirnose (2436)
• United States
26 Jan 11
We all have some kind of problems and you just have to be strong and face whatever it is that is depressing in your life. We all have feelings of hopelessness but we just have to keep on going and not think of it. You should seek some psychiatric care for your depression if any is available in your area. Hope things gets better for you; don't give up on yourself, try to see yourself in a good light.
@savypat (20216)
• United States
26 Jan 11
Do you know why you have depression? It could be a an inbalance, if that is so there are many things you can do to help. If it is emotional you could try tapping for help, go to tapping.com and follow hte free video. If you are worried about the pain of dying, then you are not really thinking about ending it all. Remember if you end it that is all you get, no cure can help, even if you have rebirth it will be a totally different life. Hang in there, who can tell what the future will bring, new ways of helping depression are coming out all the time.
@joygracia (1325)
• Philippines
27 Jan 11
I just tend to satisfy myself with simple things that I have. I'd stay optimistic because I know in time that though I may be in some point in time got nothing, but its not all the time that I will be down and got nothing.
@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
26 Jan 11
Everyone has his or her problems and as long as they dont start to stand up and face and fight the problem, they continue to feel miserable... I wish that things do get right for you... soon before it is that late
@toniganzon (72281)
• Philippines
27 Jan 11
Dear friend, I am saddened by this post of yours. You are young and yet you sounded so hopeless. I want to see you looking at life differently. There are times in our life that we just feel so sad and think that we are not blessed or we are less blessed in this world. Don't be scared and have the courage to face the world. I know it would be difficult but once you have that confidence you will be fine.
You are bringing depression into your own life. Stop hurting yourself and think positively. If you do you will be surprise that people will just come to you and start being friendly and all things will be positive then.