Loving My Best Ever Friend

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I am an thirty years old with a ten year old problem. I am in love with my one of my best friends. At least I think I am in love with him. When I first met him, I really didn't like him. He was always so annoying. But then we got to know each other better Not very long after I started to get to know him, I started to think about him romantically. Soon after, we became like brother and sister, always together. And my feelings have done nothing but grown since then. It took me about a year to work up the courage to tell him about the feelings I had for him. When I finally did, he told me that it is better for us to be friends, that he didn't want to ruin it, that I was like a sister to him and he couldn't feel the same way for me. But I just can't forget my feelings for him. Several times the pain I feel has grown so strong that I needed to avoid him, which just gave my mind time to fantasize about how great he is and how someday he has to give me a shot. But when I am away from him for so long, I miss him to the point where the only thing I want to do is be with him. No matter how much it hurts to know he doesn't feel the same way. I have actually cried about this almost a hundred times. The only advice I have gotten so far is to 'get over it', and if I could, I would. But I can't.I think that the reason I can't get over this is because I can't let go of the hopes that some day, he may change his mind. And I truly believe that if he did feel the same, I would spend the rest of my life with him. And there I go again with the 'ifs'.