Pretending to be his friends
By JewelLong
@JewelLong (108)
China
February 3, 2011 8:14am CST
three years ago,he,a boy i hated but is very handsome,became my deskmate because he chose the seat by my side.i hated him because he's impolite to others even his parents!but soon i found he was a good person but a little gloomy.he often helped me and learned english from me.he always liked playing jokes on me which made me angry but soon i forgot.gradually,i knew more about him and his family,and i no longer hate him,haha,i also told him that i used to hate him then he replied me a big smile that i never saw on his gloomy face.gradually,i found myself fall in love with him,i can't believe and tried my best to control myself.yer,finally i succeeded,however,i'm very sad everytime i see him with his now girlfriend but have to be happy to greet them.at the first when he became my deskmate i pretended to be his new friend because of an antipathy,now i still have to pretend his friends because of love.we still play jokes,talk a lot and go hiking together,however,i hide my real heart.i'm painful,what can i do???
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6 responses
@getbiswa2000 (5544)
• India
3 Feb 11
You didn't find yourself in love with him. You actually let yourself fall in love with him. This is why they say don't hate anyone so much that you end up in thinking about him all the time. That's exactly what happened to you here. You hated him a lot, yet you couldn't avoid him. He is a very curious character. His impoliteness stands in high contrast with his attractiveness. You were attracted by his beauty but were repulsed by his arrogance and cruelty. However it is the handsomeness that ultimately won. You said you tried your best to control yourself. Let me tell you, you didn't even try. It was a free fall and you fell head over heels. If things go on like this any further, you will soon find yourself in a very humiliating and embarrassing situation. You should start avoiding him right now. Consider going on a tour. Consider taking a few days off. Just avoid looking at his face if that's possible. Don't think about him. Don't hate him, but don't like him either. Busy yourself in difficult but interesting jobs. Get yourself a hobby. Try not to stay alone. Always hang out with friends. You can share all this with one of your closest friends. This is going to take some time and believe me, this is going to hurt like hell. Be ready for that.
@JewelLong (108)
• China
4 Feb 11
yer,thanks,maybe you are right.but the problem is that he has regarded me as one of his closest friends,everytime we go out to hike,he will appear,oh,that's too bad.it seems i can't avoid him,so i have to control myself.next term,i'll end my love for him,believe me,i'm a cerebral girl.
@getbiswa2000 (5544)
• India
4 Feb 11
yes you will forget him without much effort. However, if you're really a cerebral type, you can get huge success in academics. You better focus more on that. Believe me, you have a great future ahead. Cerebrals usually have only a few minor disadvantages. Most of them are not psychologically strong and independent. They always need someone to guide them. They love to work under some superior authority. They have remarkable power of imagination. This is why they often excel in academics. However most of them fail to implement their imaginations and plans. If they can do that, they will be genius in everything. I don't know if all these things apply to you. If they do, then you are definitely a cerebral type. Know yourself. Believe me, there really isn't any better job in this world.
@JewelLong (108)
• China
4 Feb 11
add,half a year later,i'll leave for university,in other word,we won't meet each other as often as now,i believe i'll forgot him very soon,haha.
@amirev777 (4117)
• India
4 Feb 11
Hi
Oh thats a real interesting love story, it looks like it has been picked out straight from Bollywood. Hope you mind mind me saying this, i do not want to hurt your sentiments at all. But now you should be realistic and try to get out of love that you have developed for him. You had your chance!!
@chiyosan (30184)
• Philippines
3 Feb 11
I think you have indeed fallen in love with this person. But pretending to be just friends is hard. Maybe if you continue to just be friends and do nothing, it will just go away. But of course it wont. I hope ynu do get out of this situati0n though. The longer it is, the harder it wil be.
@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
4 Feb 11
It definitely does like you've fallen in love with this person. However, considering the fact that he is in a relationship with another person makes it a really difficult position to be in. Of course you don't want to hurt the relationship that he is in right now and you also don't want to hurt the friendship that the two of you share. There is a chance that the relationship that he is in might end at some point and then you could let him know your feelings.
@EdnaReyes (2622)
• Philippines
4 Feb 11
Oh, a typical young love story!
It made me smiled for a while,reminding me of my won young love story!
Well, if you get hurt every time you'll see the boy with his girl,try to be friend with the new girl, find out what makes him fall for her and if you can do the same thing, then I guess, it's not yet late for him to notice you, not as a friend but a potential girl friend in the future! All is fair in love,isn't it?
It made me smiled for a while,reminding me of my won young love story!Well, if you get hurt every time you'll see the boy with his girl,try to be friend with the new girl, find out what makes him fall for her and if you can do the same thing, then I guess, it's not yet late for him to notice you, not as a friend but a potential girl friend in the future! All is fair in love,isn't it?@JewelLong (108)
• China
5 Feb 11
haha,i really don't want to be his girlfriend because i hope my bright future.cause i really value my future,i hide my real heart in order to pay all my attention to my study.however,sometimes it makes me in sorrow.thanks.
@ragavram2004 (12)
• India
4 Feb 11
Hey man......... wats the problem in tis?? s tis true tat one's u r close 2 a person u fall in love wit him/her and u being his desk mate and even as a person who knew him very well tis obvious tat u start loving him!! But it need not be always interpreted in a wrong way!! No probs at all!! Jus say him tat u like him very much!! And i feel tat he'll reciprocate the same, because he too likes u!!
