I'm confused with my personal?

means people who are around you too are always so negative to you. so what you do is always viewed in terms of the negative first.

Remember my friend, life is like "working panning for gold" .. every time panning for gold certainly would not directly get pure gold, surely there are impurities that are found .... then u get pure gold, should be separation between gold and .. and a new impurity in pure gold grab.

The dilemma that you face today is shocks mere lust previous tp sorry I think it also caused less specifically you in addressing these dilemmas.

Maybe you are just like me. Basically, i am a kind person so they say. But i know i get bad, when i cannot control my temper and just explode. How i hate myself like that, so i keep asking God everyday to help me be a better person and help me to control my temper always. So far, God granted me that, i seldom get angry now.

Every day we collect the things that we deem appropriate to raise us, and look for examples of the individuals who we deem appropriate, allow only the good that is always filling our individual containers, then we're the winner.

looking for examples of the individuals who we deem appropriate ...... let only the good that is always filling our private container .... then we're the winner "

Just be sure my dear who you among of them. Why they're surprised in good deeds?

Its all about the time.Everyone will had their tough time like you under their belts. Don't worry about the bad things.Live with the present and hope to deliver the best you can to the society.

Well, my dear, my opinion is that you're experimenting. I had this situation too, in my first years in University. I liked 1-2 persons in my group, and i used to be really mean to others. But, from time to time, i did something very nice for someone, unconditionally and uncalled, and they were really surprised. One of them even asked me: "But..didn't you hate me?". But no, it wasn't hate, it was an attitude of preservation, because it is easy to avoid getting hurt if you don't let people near you. Just that, in time i realized i could be nice to people and not expect anything in return. This way they can't hurt me, but they can surprise me in a good way if they return the favor. When you'll find your own balance, you'll decide how to act and what face to show to others. Good luck finding yourself!