I am so sick of my body not acting 34 like I am!!!

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I am a 34 year old which has undergone a few back surgeries and I am just horribly sick of the pain. I want to work again. I want to be a productive member of society or at least feel like I am. I just dont understand how everything happens to one person. 5 things ailing one person and nothing ailing the next. So not only do I have this one problem with my back that wont go away I also have other issues that have now come up. I was doing pretty well not taking pain medicine and thenafter my last surgery, I am in more pain than before and now have to take narcotics. Anyway.... I am trying to find a way to make money and things just keep getting worse with my body. Why cant I have a 34 year olds body? Is that too much to ask? lol....I just wonder how to fake it, and make people think i am perfectly normal so I can work without people worrying about me?