what is up with me

I understand how you feel because I myself is in a situation quite like that right now. What's helping me now is the great book and that is The Bible. I read it everyday and everyday God is teaching me and giving me advice. Pray and asak God for help and He will help you.

Hi awakeneddreamer! First of all I say stop putting yourself down. Yes stay humble but not to the inferiority. Try to boost your confidence. Being confident for me is the first step for having a job well done. Do not ask how long you will in the company but declare to yourself that you will stay long in it. Well if your best isn't enough then try harder and harder and harder until you are able to get it. Results at times are disappointing but that should motivate us to do better next time. It will not help putting ourselves down if we are already low. Instead find a way to lift your spirit up. I have observed that being cheerful helps a lot to perform well in our jobs. Love your job and it will do so to you. Have a nice day!

Hey awakeneddreamer I understand that you must feel very low and uncomfortable right now. I have some advise for you. Before I tell you what it is, I want you to know that I myself tried this and sometimes still have to remind myself. But I know that if you manage to do this everyday than you will have good results and you will be much happier. Here it comes: Stop feeling like a victim. Look around you and instead of saying: I hate the situation I am in etc. find all the things you really love. Say in your head: "I really love ....." and be happy about all those things you love. You will be amazed how many they are. And the other thing is find every day 5 things you are thankful for. After a while you will discover, that things change and even more of the things you love will show up in your life. Hold your head high. You are a wonderful person with a lot going for you.- You'll see.