Lost in GOAL setting

I'm an undergraduate too, a single mother of one and unemployed. I wasn't able to finish my 2nd year of college due to monetary reasons so I worked instead. I lost hope of being able to attend college again so I turned my attention to boys and got myself pregnant by a guy who left me in the end. It was stupid and careless, I know. But maybe if I continued to hope and worked hard I would've gotten myself into this mess. I love my baby and I don't really regret having him. It's just that I wish that I could have given him a better life than this and that if I could have been better prepared as a mother, I wouldn't be making a lot of mistakes and that my parents would be proud of me. To lose hope now while you're still young would be fatal to your future and the future of your would-be family. Sometimes the only person you can really rely on is yourself if the people around you aren't any help. Isn't there anything that you would really want to be? I wanted to have my own business so when the times comes that I will be able to apply for work I'll start saving up for my son's education and for my own gym even! You got to really want those dreams that you have. In the end, those dreams are all we have so making them come true will define our lives