did u experience how to have a HEART BROKEN?!

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4 years ago,i had split-up with my 5-years boyfriend.With this years that we are together,we've shared special memories that i thought would never end...I have built my life with him.We are so happy at that time,without considering any problem that may arise between us.We just enjoy being together.We have so much love in our hearts. Years had past,we never knew that things are changing.Maybe because we are just in-denial of what is happening.We fight too often.We never listen to each others side.Both of us have we're right!Nobody wants to put down our ego's!So,we decided to end up our relationship just as easy as that. I told him that i don't want to see his face ever!Even tell him not to communicate with me at all..I was so childish at that time and i want to stand for the words that i have said!I need to make him realize that i can live without him and that i don't need him... ever!! Weeks after break up was still a STRONG person that everybody can see in me.They just don't know that i am just hiding the real feeling inside of me... Inside of me is shouting for his name..missing him badly..and i want to freak out of what had happened to us! Pretentious weeks had past and the truth is being seen in my eyes.I missing him so bad and that i am hurting inside.The feeling was "i was lost in somewhere and i can't find my way home! The path that i am taking is getting dark each day and he is the only person who could bring back the light in my messy life.How i wish i could turn back the time that we are still together.How i wish that he never listen when i told him to get out of my life and never dare to communicate with me ever! I regret those words that i have said.But what else can i do?!? He is gone and will never come back!I know i hurt him so bad.I've seen the pain in his eyes on the the moment that we separate our ways.I wish i could turn back the time...but i can't! Just last year,i search his name on facebook and his name appeared..!My heart beats so fast and i'm too excited to see his face again.I search for his photos but no picture of him appeared.Disappointed yet i want to know if what happened to him after we broke up!According to his information on fb,he is MARRIED;Had a son,1 year of age!It was really a shock on my part!I was so depressed that how can he get married to someone else while i am suffering for years.I've been desperate for years but he is happy all the while.My heart was broken again but a part of me is saying that i need to go on with my life.He is GONE and will never be MINE again. Though my heart is aching i need to be STRONG!!!I want to thank GOD for making me realize that LIFE should be appreciated and be thankful with whatever circumstances that you encounter (be it good or bad). You may not know the purpose of it at first, but eventually you will learn the significance of it!Maybe i was hurt,..yes! but it made me a better person!It helped me realize that life is too short so be responsible with what you said coz you may regret it in the end!~ Destiny for me is somehow not true.Because we are the one who's making our own destiny!!!Whatever situation we are right now,, always anticipate the things that might happen!Its not yet end of the world so continue living... I am ok now.Fully recovered and happy. Accepted the things that happened and accept that some persons will not stay or be with us forever.What i am doing now is to go with the flow of my life.If something's making me happy,i let my self be happy;If i feel bad..i let it be but make sure that it wont last..I wont be stuck with sadness and sorrow for years again..I WON"T!!!!Life is too short so let us all be HAPPY!!