Oh such pain!
By Toni
@toniganzon (72533)
Philippines
March 28, 2011 11:05pm CST
Have you ever felt any emotional pain, so painful that you can't even breathe? That kind of pain that can't even make you cry but it just hurts so much it makes you want to die?
I am suffering from such unexplainable pain that I can't cry at all. I have never had this kind of pain at all and my mind is just blank. I am trying my best to cheer myself up by playing with my son or getting busy wi my work. I want to escape from reality for awhile and leave in a dreamworld. The worst thing is, even in my dreams, this kind of pain is hurting me so much. I was able to sleep last gut but I awoke to a nightmare and I tried to convince myself to go back to sleep. I even begged God to help me get through with this. I can't stand to be alone right now. I want to be surrounded by people. I want my husband's support.
Oh such pain, please go away.
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10 responses
@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
29 Mar 11
Oh dear, I believe this is the result of the loneliness that you had been facing for quite sometime over the past few weeks... I remember the discussions of the Valentines day, then your birthday.
Is this the result of the time share that you guys have been missing? Or is it about anything else? Let me know and I can try to find a solution for my dear friemd.
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@toniganzon (72533)
• Philippines
29 Mar 11
Thank you my dear friend. I am feeling a bit better now knowing that i've got a lot of people who care. Yes it has something to do with all the things that you mentioned and i just hope i can get it over soon. I am giving myself a week to recuperate and be strong again and go back to my old jolly self. When i spring back to life, you will surely know as i will post it here again.
Thanks so much for the concern.
@thesids (22180)
• Bhubaneswar, India
29 Mar 11
Ok. I am not sure if this can help but why not take your family (maybe your kid and your MIL - as she was with you and I hope she is there still with you, in case your hubby is unable to give some time) out to some mall and do some shopping or even go to a roadside eatery and have something good... I think this would refresh you for a few hours and when you are back home, you will feel better and refreshed to think about a better solution
@toniganzon (72533)
• Philippines
29 Mar 11
I wish i could but i just can't do that today because of my class schedule. I don't have enough time to go out. But tomorrow i have a free time to go shopping and my MIL and i, with my son are going to a fish spa.
Thanks for the suggestion. My MIL is actually staying in our house and but she goes out to shop everyday because if she goes back to New Jersey, she stays in the house most of the time so she feels bored. She wants to go out with me everyday but i don't have much free time because of my work. But tomorrow we will go shopping.
If the weather will be fine this week, we might go to an island for two days to relax and enjoy the water. Now, i am feeling much better because my husband is home and i am busy with my class again. So tonight at 11pm after i finish my class, i will talk to my husband about this. Actually they are not aware of what i'm going through because i don't show it to them.
@Masihi (4413)
• Canada
29 Mar 11
Wow, that's pretty intense. I do know what you're going through, because for the past 3 years I myself have gone through a lot of pain, and really only support of my husband and now Reverend could help, along with my faith in G-d. In my case I had to let go of the situation which was the hardest thing for me to do, and I'm still suffering from it.
I see you believe in G-d, how about being brutally honest to Him? For a long time I wasn't totally honest with Him, keeping some thoughts unspoken. But I found it so much easier when I told Him my exact feelings, what my desires were, etc. I was so afraid before he'd be displeased with me, but well, it's the exact opposite effect. So that in itself was emotionally healing for me. Also if you have a priest or rabbi you can talk to you can be assured that everything you say is in strict confidence. They have to, as they're bound by law. They have experience in basic counseling as well as speaking from the perspective of your faith.
A medical doctor might be able to refer you to a more advanced form of counseling. When a person is experiencing this much pain that it's physically affecting them, it could lead to some medical issues, so it's best to seek attention as soon as possible.
I myself am under a doctor's care and I'm getting better in dealing with my own character, dealing with situations, etc. I hope this can be of some help. I'm concerned for you on this post. Hang in there, ok?
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@toniganzon (72533)
• Philippines
29 Mar 11
Thank you so much for sharing this. I really appreciate it. I am still in control and i am doing fine. Right now i just need to be around people so that they can distract me from my thoughts. I told my son never to leave my side and i told him that i'm sad. I even told him the reason why i'm sad and at the age of 7 he understood me. I am lucky to have him. Right now my husband is busy and won't be coming home till night comes. I will surely talk to him too and tell him to help me out with this.
@captainmorgan (773)
• Canada
29 Mar 11
I know what you mean and it sucks! It's like something invisible is crushing your chest and you want to scream and you beg for it to stop and it doesn't. It hurts but you just have to live through it because everything will be okay in the end. If it isn't okay - it's not the end. If there is something you don't like in your life, change it. Simple as that. You don't need to complicate it with the ifs and the buts and the hows. It makes it seem simple and straight forward which makes the change and the actual problem look much less scary!
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@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
29 Mar 11
hello toni,
What caused your pain?
You have to resolve what caused you pain.
You can not moved on from it unless it is being resolved my dear.
It's hard to pretend when deep inside you are dying with sadness.
First you have to cry it out...scream if it is needed.
It will help you released some pain inside.
It's not good for your health if you just kept it inside,let go of your emotions it will ease some pain.
I hope you will get over with it soon
@chuyins123 (2112)
• Philippines
29 Mar 11
Hi toni my dear friend,
I'm wondering what causes such a pain. I'm sorry I am not so near to keep you company. Just continue praying my friend, God can provide the greatest and ultimate comfort there is, if we would only allow Him to do so.
Is it some sort of depression? A disappointment of something? What?
You can PM me if you want to discuss it. Be well there my friend. Be strong. May God's hand be upon you.
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@mohdromly (165)
• Malaysia
29 Mar 11
Hello toniganzon.I have several suggestion for you.First,get help from your family,doctors and your best friend.Second,please tell your family about your problem.Third, do not harm or hurt yourself.Please get help immediately
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@housechaos7 (609)
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29 Mar 11
sometimes life just becomes to much and as we havent dealt with issues when they arise these things can all build up and leave us feeling drastic,i suggest you get some support and even see your gp maybe they will send you to councilling to help you deal with things better.
@frontvisions101 (16043)
• Philippines
29 Mar 11
I had been suffering toothache the last few weeks. One of my teeth is pushing another set causing my gums to bleed and hurt.
@junrapmian (2169)
• Philippines
30 Mar 11
So sorry to hear that, my friend! What is it that is giving you emotional pain? Do you have personal problems that you do not know what to do? Ask help from some of your close friends or relatives. It is better to bring it out so that you will feel better. Go out and take a walk, who knows? you might find something that will change your mood today.
@moirai (2853)
• Philippines
1 Apr 11
Yes...
I hope you feel better soon. I think you have the right idea anyway. Look for support from people around you, your family and your friends. Pray. Keep yourself busy, anything that will keep your mind from being idle. Because, more often than not, an idle mind will make you dwell more on the negative thoughts that give you pain...