The man I loved is gone to Heaven
@chrystaltears (3392)
United States
March 29, 2011 9:14pm CST
The man I would marry one day is no longer here. He went away yesterday. He was sitting up with his mother who was dying of leukemia, and when he went back to his room to rest, he had a massive heart attack. I just about feel like I can't handle any more pain right now. It has been one death after another in my family and extended family for the past four years. I just needed to share my pain.
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@yansky23 (404)
• Philippines
15 Sep 11
I'm sorry for that. My condolences for you. I know and imagine how painful that be. You need to let your tears flow, they said that crying is a defensive mechanism to cope up with unpleasantness,hurt or pain. After you've shed all your tears, you'll feel better. But it's easier said than done. I know it will take time, maybe years for the heartache fade. But you need to let him go and move on.God bless.
@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
15 Sep 11
Thank you yansky. What you wrote is so sweet and precious. It means alot to me for you to take the time out to say something so nice to me. I have cried alot and it is better than it was, but then of course, there are the very sad times again.
@toniganzon (72285)
• Philippines
31 Mar 11
I too have lost a friend a few days ago and i am so depressed and i don't know what to do. I am in so much pain like you and i only have mylot to share this pain right now. As of the moment i am still crying and listening to a Christian song to make me feel better.
I wish there's an eraser of some sort to erase the pain we feel in our heart. I know how painful it is and what you're going through. I wish that i could make you feel better but all i can do is also share my own pain to you. 
@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
25 Aug 11
toniganzon, thanks so much for replying to my comment. I am very sorry for you that you have lost a best friend. That is a very difficult experience to endear. I had a best friend decide I shouldn't be in her life a short time ago. She walked out of my life after 8 or 10 years or so. She didn't die, but I know the pain. Yet, I could still call and hear her voice if I wanted or pop by and take something to her if I wanted even tho I new she may wish I would just leave her alone.
I am very sorry your friend is gone. You will see your friend again some day. Right?
I appreciate you sharing your pain with me. That is a good psychological way to help, isn't it? I think that is why they have AA meetings and all so everyone will know they aren't the only ones with the problems and can share others feelings as well. Supposed to help, so I guess it does. Thanks so msuch for taking the time to share with me, and I hope by now it is easier for you and will get easier to cope with as you go.
@thanks1961 (7035)
• India
30 Mar 11
Hi dear,
I feel so sorry and my hearty condolences. I know it is so painful for you and we have to suffer such facts, where we all are helpless on situations like this. Let me join with your prays.
Thank-s
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@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
5 Jul 11
I appreciate your condolences. It is something very difficult to experience. I know that I will see him again someday. Thank you so much for your prayers and joining me in mine. If there's ever something you need me to pray, please let me know. I would like to return the favor and also, you are blessed already for praying for this situation. Thank you again.
@kajal1992 (354)
• India
30 Mar 11
first of all tribute to him from the bottom of my heart, you know what , life is full of pain, everyone will have to leave this beautiful world one day, i just wanna say that just think , if you were in the place of him, and he in the place of you, now think if you will die , how much pain he will get, think it, life is just painful , and we have to suit ourself in every enviornment
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@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
5 Jul 11
You are so right. I never would have thought to look at it from that point of view. Thanks so much for bringing this to my attention in that way. You are also right that we have to suit ourselves in every environment. Have a blessed day.
@debrakcarey (19887)
• United States
30 Mar 11
Sharing it lightens the load, I am sorry for your loss. How can I help?
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@sender621 (14894)
• United States
30 Mar 11
I am so sorry for your terrible loss. Mylotter thoughts and prayers are with in your time of need. Know that we are thinking of you. I lost the one i loved almost five years ago. I still think of him everyday as you probably will go through too. Take care!@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
1 Jul 11
Yes, I know I will think of him daily for a while and cry. I miss him so much.
@aeiou78 (3445)
• Malaysia
30 Mar 11
This is really a sad period for you.
For me, I am not sure if I can handle this situation calmly or well or not.
Luckily, there is a good platform for you to tell and share with.
In our life, we have to leave the people around us some day.
This is the fact that we must learn the way to accept it.
I hope you can recover soon.
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@Kate34 (656)
• France
30 Mar 11
I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Losing a loved one I always difficult and it's really really sad that people in your family keep dieing. You know everyone at mylot will be here to comfort you in your time of need. I am so sorry once again and I wish you well in the future. Oh and always don't be too sad he wouldn't you just to linger over him and not have a good time
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@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
1 Jul 11
I know he would want me to be strong until I see him again. I am happy for the mylotters who write words of encouragement. Thank you.
@kwylima (451)
• United States
30 Mar 11
I am so sorry about what is going on in your life right now! I know how hard is that and I wish nobody ahd to feel this kind of pain..
Everything will get better soon and you will lean how to live without those people who past away...
i will pray for you from today on and god will heard me and he will give you some comfort in your heard. love yourself and you will feel better.
love :)
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@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
1 Jul 11
Thank you so much for your prayers. All the prayers will help me more than anything else.
@omentheduck (84)
• United States
30 Mar 11
Just wanted to give my condolences. I know it has to be hard. Family and friends are th only things that can help now. Remember that and it may help.
I hoipe things look up for you soon.
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@allknowing (136770)
• India
30 Mar 11
Sometimes it just doesn't rain but pours. Some experience this and you are one among them. There is no answer to this except that it makes one stronger but those who have gone I believe are still there to help their loved ones here on earth in that case you have more help chrys. Take courage and time being the healing balm you will be able to slowly get back to normal.
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@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
1 Jul 11
I agree with what you are saying. I talk to my loved ones who are gone. I look forward to seeing them again. Thanks so much.
@hardworkinggurl (37063)
• United States
30 Mar 11
Oh Chrystal dear my deepest and sincerest sympathy for your loss. I am so sorry to hear this. So unexpected. I am completely at a loss for words. I 2 weeks ago lost my grandma as well and know that I can understand the loss of a dear loved one.
I will say a prayer Chrystal and hope that you can gain strength, know that he is in a wonderful place now and that someday you will be able to see one another again.
Kisses and hugs my friend.
@scentcastle (241)
• Philippines
30 Mar 11
Such bad news. My condolences to you. I may not know what you are going through right now but I would like to let you know that your pains are felt and that you are not alone. Be strong my dear. Sometimes we question life and its fairness but then that's what life is. I am so sorry to hear this bad news from you. Take care okay.
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@chrystaltears (3392)
• United States
30 Mar 11
Thank you so much. I can't hardly see to type because of my tears.
