My first love..
By bussyien
@bussyien (134)
Indonesia
March 30, 2011 12:20pm CST
Love is very misterious. We never know when we will fall in love. We just know it when it happen. It feels, accidentally..sometimes slowly. Love will give us happiness, but it also give sadness. Recent days, somehow I always thought someone from the past. He is my first love. Yeah, he is someone who attract my attention when I was young and just getting to know love. He is my cousin. We live in different town, so I just meet him sometimes. We are not too familiar, but I knew that he was very kind and smart. I never told to him about my feeling. I think that he could not have had the same feelings. And then, like first love in general, this feeling a little forgotten. I seldom see him anyway. One day, after many years I did not see him, I've got a bad news about him. He was sick. Not the ordinary illness, but life-threatening illness. Chronic lung cancer. I panicked, I'm sad. I'd love to see him, but he was very far and will seek treatment abroad because there is no doctor in my country that optimistic about his health. I can not imagine how he feels pain. I can only pray for him. Several days later, I got the news that much worse. I will never hear his voice again and will never see his smile again. He is resting in peace before he go abroad. He leave me forever. I hope he is now in heaven. I hope he is happy wherever he is now, and will not suffer pain again.
6 responses
@hardworkinggurl (37063)
• United States
30 Mar 11
I am sorry to hear that he passed away. My sincerest condolences to you and his loved ones.
Please know that he is now resting in peace and no longer in suffering and or pain. It is so unexplainable how this type of illnesses at times take such a great impact and cause a person to pass so quickly.
Keep his memory alive in your heart and know that he would want you to be happy. Many blessings and my prayers to you for happiness and strength during this difficult time.
Welcome aboard to you to myLot.
@surekharathi (14146)
• India
31 Mar 11
Nice response friend I will rated your response I like your talking and blessing way
@juniorstringbean08 (455)
• Philippines
3 Apr 11
im sorry to hear that my friend.. i have experienced falling in love with a cousin too, but it was mutual between us but it never succeeded. now, we just laughed everything off whenever we try to recall those days. however, i am very sorry to hear that from you that he passed away all of a sudden, and i know it never was easy dealing with your worries when you were so far away from him. you did the right thing which is just to pray for him... you're right, he's in a good resting place right now... free from pain and sickness of the body. 
@thatgirl13 (7294)
• South Korea
30 Mar 11
I'm so sorry for what happened. I hope he is not in pain anymore and resting in peace. I hope his family and you get all the strength needed to overcome this loss. May god bless you.
@kaizel (82)
• Philippines
1 Apr 11
My sincerest apology to you T_T. I know the feeling of losing the person you love. I too experienced that kind of thing. Sometimes there will be a lot of tests that you will be experiencing as you grow older and with those experience, it can make you stronger and more confident in facing the real world we live in.
All of us will die someday, it is just sad that he was taken first T_T. You said that you didn't tell him how you feel and you didn't let him know that you love him right. here is a little advice... send your love to heaven ^_^
