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2nd April,2001 It is about 10 years back from now when i saw her first time at a Grocery site where i used to be a cashier,she was wearing a blue colored shirt and White paint. She entered in my shop with her two friends who were whispering with each other and laughing at something i didn't know but she didn't seems to be joining them with their funny mode and she looked like a different from any girl i have ever seen or knew.Well as she came inside the shop and tried to look around for what she wanted to buy and i was stunned and staring at her shiny face and was feeling like drowning into her deep, silent eyes.....!! Oh My God....Suddenly She turned to the counter,i was standing right behind and i started thinking what she would ask me for and how she is going to start speaking("Ummm actually i was looking for a perfume,lipstick,cosmetic...?) And right in a sudden while she was coming to me,i also started planning how i will be talking to her,where i should start from... By saying? "Hello!!" Hi" How are you doing today"??? My whole body was shrieking and i was feeling my tongue was getting dried and i thought i won't be able to see her face at all,so how i 'ill be assisting her with what ever she came to my shop...?? How ever i was a sharp seller and talk like a wording machine and never stopped bargaining until my customers get convenience.But this time i was so much nerves and considering myself a new guy at a shop...A thousands of desires and plans and ideas was coming across my brain and i was hearing a huge cheer inside my mind but as she stopped right in front of my counter,every thing seemed to be stopped and there was a total silence every where and the sight was like a movie and i was shy hero and was seeing the most beautiful girl so closely and clearly."Do you have a "? she wanted to ask for something but she didn't as she found me not in senses because i was staring at her like hungry poor man stare at a sweet shop yes i was staring at her like that with my mouth opened and eyes frozen...!! "HelloO0" she waved her hand and to got me out of the dream world i was creating around ...she thought i was dreaming about something and wasn't listening to her(but she didn't know i was getting crush on her). "Are you alright"? She inquired. Oh yeah! i am" ohh! "sorry" "yes" "what" "So" You want to buy a cool handbag huh? "i will show you a pretty much latest variety with fair prices" And that hand Bag will be unique type of you have ever bought" i assure you" i really" Hey! Hey! i didn't ask for a handbag, did i? she interrupted me and got down her face and putting her smooth shiny and beautiful hand onto her soft juicy lips and smiled silently. oh! i am sorry i thought you was about to buy a hand bag.i said quietly "Actually i would like to have a Lipstick with strawberry flavor" finally she asked oh yes yes that's what i was thinking about, i uttered unconsciously. sorry, "what was thinking about"? she looked suspicious No No, i mean, ummm actually i noticed you was looking at some lipsticks outlet banner so i thought you are....i tried to offend Ah! it's okay well...so can i have that lipstick now? yes of course just give me a moment while i get your favorite lipstick with strawberry flavor. I was totally freaked out and forgot where the lipsticks box was... so i asked to my shop owner for that box and my owner was watching over me and he was smiling at what i was doing and he knew why i looked nerves.Well my boss gave me the lipstick box and i gave it to her.She was choosing her favorite lipstick and i was staring at her lips and thinking how that lipstick was luck which is going to kiss her lips..ahhhh! i wish i was a lipstick..... She was trying that lipstick on her soft lips and my mouth was totally opened with wonder. She asked for prices and sure i was forgot of course... But she said she knew it's price and she gave me the money and i took it without counting and without taking a look as i have not moved my eyes from her face yet. I dropped the money into the cash box and saw she was going out.....What!!! She was going?? Just like that..? A girl i have ever waited for, A girl of the type, i have ever dreamed about...She came and bought some thing and gone??? It can't be ended like this and how could i let her go like that...??? So i got up and made an excuse to my Boss for going home for a bit and started walking after her..... oh Hell...i was chasing a girl?? An ridiculous act i never liked and i was doing that act???Chasing a girl without any reason ?? But i found my legs automatically running after her..i couldn't stop my self my be i didn't want either... As she reached in a street and that street was totally empty and then she said bye bye to her two friends and now she was alone...It was like a golden chance to let her know about my love at the first sight. With this feeling that i "ill tell her how i got crush on her, i started walking more speedily and as i was right behind her, she turned around and frighted after finding me chasing her from the shop to her house.. I was scared more than her as she looked surprised so i turned back and start running the opposite side of the street.She stopped for a while and then start walking again.I stopped by the street corner where she couldn't see me but i did,i was hiding just to see where she lives actually so that i might be able to see her around some day. She entered in a big house through a small door and i was trying to keep remember what the door color was. I got back to the shop and tried to get back to my work how ever i could do any thing as i felt like an storm came up and gone a bit while ago.That was the longest day in my life when i was waiting for going back to home....! 4th May, It was summer and we have not had so much customers in the shop to assist and it was a spare time so I was sitting in the shop and reading a novel...A whole shopping area and all the shops were almost empty and there were only a few customers were wondering around. 4'o'Clock in the after noon and i saw a female around 45-50 years old with a kids and a girl walking slowly behind her. That girl had a huge goggle on her face and she stopped by my counter and asked for a handbag.I showed her some bags and she chooses the pink one. "Price"? she asked i told her the price, she paid me and gone and i hold my novel back and started reading.Abruptly i remembered her voice and i jumped out of my chair and looked out side the shop and i saw the girl was standing out side and staring at me and she might be thinking why i didn't recognize her but as i jumped she noticed me remembered her.And she started walking behind that old lady she came with. This time i didn't want to chase her because there was a lady with her and she could be her Mom so i thought it's not a good idea or not a appropriate time. December 20, After felling in love with a girl who didn't know me by my name even, i realized that i could stay and keep workin in that shop where i found my love and it's pain and now i haven't seen her for 7 months and i couldn't forget her and i decided to quite my job so i could find any other job some where else where i won't be missing her. After 2 months i moved to another city and found a job in a small shopping store and tried to start a new life....!! July 13,2004 I had to attend a wedding of my cousin and had to come to my old city where i used to live.That wedding was pretty much exited and every one seemed to be having a lots of fun.I found a peaceful corner and took a drink and lighted and sat down on the grass under a tall tree.And now i started enjoying the wedding by sitting away from all the guest because they all were making a noise and i couldn't bear.As the bride and groom came into the garden i got up and started walking to them to joined the ending session of the wedding.I was standing right behind the groom and i felt someone was standing right side of mine and was staring at me with mouth opened.i don't like people stare at my face with no reason so i turned to that person and wanted to say "What is wrong with your eyes, can't you move 'em from my face"?But as i turned i got stunned.....!! Oh My God....It was my dream girl,standing right there and staring at me? at me? woow!!But before i start saying something,she ran away and i also started running after her but there were a lots of guest with color full dresses so i lost her....i could find her. After loosing all the hopes of finding her, i sat down at the same place under the tree.There was a guy who noticed all this matter and walked to me and sat down near to me without asking me.But i thought it was not a restaurant and i have not reserved that place so i let him sit. "Do you konw her"? He asked me with a dirty smile Excuse me?i replied as i didn't get him Do you know that girl you was running after?He asked again. Well i have no idea what are you talking about.I replied "Well i know her" He smiled again and said. oh really? i couldn't stop myself from pretending to be unfamiliar to her. He laughed and spoke "you just said you have no idea"hahahahha in short he told me that she was a cousin of the bride' friend. And her name was "...." ( i am sorry guys i can't disclose her name.) well..at least i had her name now... i got back home that night and i felt i have lost something on the way and that thing was my peace of life and mind. I decided to move to the same city where my love was....and i did move back after a month. February 19, 2005 i went to the same shop where i had worked before and my old boss was so pleased for having me back in his shop as a receptionist. i started my old job in my old city where that girl was and she didn't even know i am back and i was thinking how would she shocked when ever she comes to the shop and find me back. And i had been waiting for her coming but she didn't come. June 1