I can't sleep (love matters)
By Valadas
@Valadas (83)
Portugal
April 3, 2011 11:01pm CST
It's 4.30am, I can't sleep! So I decided to write the reason of why I can't sleep! I'm bored too X_X
Basically, a few hours ago I talked to the girl who already said that liked me twice and in those two times I said that I didn't like her. I found out that i'm in love with her. This girl is so in love with me that I couldn't resist her. She is such a sweet girl. She's just perfect. I don't know how could I say no to her twice. She is the perfect girl. Girls like her are hard to find. She's just so cute and perfect. Words can't describe her. There are a lot of cute girls, but one with a personality like her's, it's super rare. Cute + perfect personality = irresistible.
I found out that I was in love with her when we had a conversation in the bus stop. I asked her if she still liked me and when she said yes and I confirmed it, I don't know why but it was different from the other times that she said she liked me. I had the courage to ask her face to face and by that way is very different. We always talked about this matter by text messages or messenger. Also she wrote such a beautiful text to me. No girl has ever written anything for me. And the way she wrote that text was so poethic and romantic. I just couldn't resist. The way she looks at me with those beautiful eyes is just from another world.
Now for the reason of why I can't sleep. Basically, today I'm gonna say to her that I like her and I want to date her. But I just don't know how i'm gonna say it. I have never had a girlfriend in my life or even a kiss. I am really nervous. What will I say to her and how and when is the right time to kiss her? This I have to resolve myself. I know that she understands why I am so nervous because I talked to her about this. I didn't say that I liked her but I talked about this indirectly. She said that when you have no experience, you learn as the time passes. I know that but yeah... I'M NERVOUS. She said that she stills gets nervous too when she kisses somebody for the first time. I imagine how will she feel when she kisses me for the first time. She's so crazy about me (I think.. and hope) that I don't know what her reaction will be... or mine. Will I feel something? If I don't what do I do? She said that the first kiss is always a laugh because we have no experience so I guess we will both laugh and then try again.. I don't know xD
I just hope that she feels the same way about me. Before it was her who asked herself if I felt the same way about her. Now it's the opposite.
But I can't be pessimist. I just gotta think that everything is gonna go just fine. Just like any ordinary day... with a "minor" difference.
This text isn't a discussion so you don't need to post any commentarys but if you want you are free to do it. I wrote this just to say what's on my mind right now. I have never been like this just because of a girl... My life sucks X_X
3 responses
@Filigs (122)
• Portugal
4 Apr 11
so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! are you happy? ofcourse you are!!!! after all you said and did to me, I still cant believe you typed that on mylot, its just.. omg.. really... annoying and sad at the same time, I wont even say anything else
~~ Happy Mylotting ~~
@Valadas (83)
• Portugal
4 Apr 11
Dude, please don't ger angry with me. I couldn't resist to her... it wasn't my fault. Seriously. And that times that me and her spent together while both of you were dating were a mere coincidence.
Please... I beg you.. I don't wanna lose you as a friend. I consider you one of my best friends and I don't wanna lose you...
Please forgive me...
@Filigs (122)
• Portugal
4 Apr 11
Alright before I say my commentary, this guy is one of my best friends... or was... so im going to start my commentary on this, its real, no lies, I'll try to be the most calm I can, you will see why I'm saying this...
This guy presented me this girl while she was in love with him, I knew her better and she forgot him and started loving me, I loved her and we started flirting for one week, after that week she left me because when she was with me she was thinking on this guy yea, so she broke up with me because of him, but he knew since the begining that me and her were in love, but he was getting near and near day by day, as you can see thats a good friend of mine, still im going to keep telling my story, she broke up with me because of him and instead of being without me and him, no, she started thiunking more and more on this guy, yea he was keeping going near without any intention of loving/flirting/daring her, but, surprisingle, after i showed him some stuff she wrote aobut him, he got in love with her, and him being HEARTLESS yeah, he kept telling me everything as if I didnt love her, even now I'm typing this I still feel something for her, I want to stop thinking about her but I just cant, I dont know why, after all the sht(sorry for the language) she did to me, I can't stop...!!!! That girl is the girl that hurted me most in my life, I can assure you that, so as I don't want this commentary to be negative at all, I will do a happy ending, which is... Congratularions GIRL now you made me completely forget you... you know why? Cause this story made my day be the day I was most pissed off in my life, yeah!!!! cheers for that!!
If any of you both read this, I'm glad to show you how I feel now, yea I feel like sht and at the same time I feel like I dont wanna see your face anymore, what you both did to me was... I dont even know how bad it was... But I got treated like worst than a human being, yea... But I'm wondering, why am I shaking while I type this? there's a fix and easy answer for this question, its because Im pissed off like really baaad yea, Thank you both for being such good friends to me, I really apreciate the way you treated my "heart", was gently, who will suffer with this won't be you all, will be the next girl Ill get in love with, isn't going to be her fault but all the sht you guys did to me will be reflected to her, I will try not to but I'm not the type of guy that solves problems with violence, I hate the taste of revenge in my mouth but I will just spit it, because its not worth it, you don't even deserve a damn revenge, sorry... should I say "sorry"? I don't think so... I think you don't deserve that word... But as I told you before, you'll have a happy ending, be a happy couple, without me being in the middle of you all will be better for you and you know it, since all this time all I was , was an obstacle right? Just a piece of sht stanking there being used and watching you all love each other, so sweet!!!
I removed this commentary, you asked for it, you get it, this isn't even half of what I feel at the moment.
