what if's...... I just can't easily let go of the responsibility!

How I wish our eldest sister is the same as you. I'm the youngest. But, the responsibility was with me. And so, I'm feeling the same feeling you are experiencing. Just a word. . just put in mind that the reason why you are given a lot of responsibility is because it's you that the Lord has chosen who has the capability of making it happen. What I mean is, He believes in you. Keep up the good work edss17 :) happy mylotting.

I salute you for being a good daughter. Your parents must be so proud of you! Like what you said, you love your family, so you don't have the heart to leave them. Being the eldest is a tough responsibility too, specially when your siblings are just too small to help you do the chores you have to do. But in due time, all of them will be big enough to help , so just keep on, God will have His rewards for you.

I admire you for loving your family without exceptions. I also love my family. When I left our home, without seeing then in a few months i realized how much I love them and I want to be with them again soon, and I cant live without them. I love my parents and siblings, thanks GOD it is not too late for me to tell them that i was sorry with the things i've done and how much I love them. ^_^

I understand how you feel edss17. I am as well the eldest in the family. Being the eldest, it is normal to feel responsible for the whole family. You realy have to work hard for them. But of course, you have to let go eventually so that you will be happy in having a family of your own in the future. As of the present, you have to look after your family first.

all you have to do is to wait for the proper time to happen at ease, you still feel that your family needs you fine, you're so blessed to have that passion, but remember your self your own happiness we come accross this lifetime one's and that's it, nothing will follow after that, so know very well you're life's ending.

truth... i'm so jealous... you have a great patience in you... you are not running from a reality... not like me... for several time... i refuse to take care 3 of my brothers when my parents asked... it ends up quarrel.. and i run from home... i hope i can be like you...

I find people tend to do what they really want to do. Now, we can't be blaming this on what ifs. Everybody knows what ifs never happen. Remember adversity breeds invention. If you leave, one of the other 6 will have to grow up just as you have. Lastly, if you do leave home, that will never stop you from visiting at any time. Families don't have to break up if they don't live under the same roof. Do some more planning, but lose the fear. We already can see you are more than capable.

Though you did not experience the typical teenager era it is good to hear that your heart goes to the most important people you have, family. No matter what situation you are in, if family is the priority then so be it. For as long as you are together and happy then live it. There is nothing wrong with looking out for your brothers/sisters at a young age. It only shows you have importance for your family and what better way to give back to your parents the life that they have given you is by taking responsibility which is given to you by being the eldest in the family. Take part in your brothers/sisters life and show them how it is to put importance on family. You are definitely imparting to them that family will always be important no matter what.

You were barely 18, I don't think that it's right to leave your parents' care. And you said that you are the eldest so I assure your younger siblings are still in grade or high school. You just can't think of the right decision by this time. But I commend you since you have a heart for your parents and family. Just be good and finish your studies and you won't be having worries anymore.

I know this feeling only too well. I had to grow up pretty fast. I had to lie about my age when I was only 13 and say I was 15. I worked 7 days a week and went to school I had two children at a young age myself. There are days I want/wanted to say I done I need to find me. But then the inner side of me says, wait a minute they need me. It's the love for our family that somehow pulls us through. Sometimes no matter how much we want the break it will never compensate for our efforts and love we have for our loved ones.

well,i am not in the same situation as you are right now.i am a lone child in our family right now eversince my sister got married.this is one thing i can tell you edss.you are so lucky that you have many siblings to talk to and share things about.enjoy their company.as for me,i always wanted to have many brothers and sisters.

That is sweet and endearing, but you need your own life too! Maybe you should just try being on your own and see what it feels like. You can always go back home if you don't like it and your feelings are telling you to. Your family will always be there for you. Or maybe you could just move close by and have the best of both worlds? You should just try it!