How worse can it get for my ex ?

Hello starfish, welcome to mylot. A lot of beautiful fishes ! Beautiful at heart..... It so nice to see that her stupid status updates don't bother me much now. Just makes me think a little, Pity her... She is foolish you know, i was seriously into this girl and she didn't know... She just lost me forever, and i definitely deserve a loving and caring woman. :)

Hello my Dear Saphy, :) Well, i hope it will not be something she can't handle. I only want her to realize the pain she inflicted on me, and that is all i want from her. I don't want to see her face ever again. BOOOO Secret ? Ask her ! She was the one to keep it a secret not me.. ! I introduced her to all my friends, there was a session where i was shy to admit to my friends but i DID because I LOVED her. I told my friends that i have been seeing her for a while and i that i really look forward to a long relationship with her. And at her side ? She didn't want to say anything. I was probably a shame to her ? She said she wasn't comfortable with her friends knowing it. Apparently (as i see it now) she didn't want her 'guy friends' to know about it, actually, not anyone. I was the fool to have accepted her conditions and i just gave everything up for her just because i thought she needed sometime to open up about it, and i gave her two 2 years for that. I didn't expect anything like this coming from her though. Sometimes it makes me so angry that i curse her and wish she be drowned in sorrow and remorse for what she did to me.. But i am the more understanding one here. I just cool down and pity her, coz i don't know, i guess somewhere in my heart i still care about her.. Just a little though. I just don't want to think about her anymore.... Gaah, she is not even worth it. What can i do ? i have a foolish heart. Well, next time this foolish heart is going to be quite picky when it comes to giving itself to some girl. haha.. Only the one who deserve it shall rightfully steal it from me. :P I am not hunting, my Saphy. This girl, my 'J' , i just fed her up into my head. I love talking to her (in my mind) . Like an inspiration to me, someone i admire. I believe she is very romantic and kind hearted. I don't talk to her for real, nor am i thinking of adding her on facebook. I just think of her as someone ideal for me, and it's only the pillow i hug and caress! hahaha.. Doesn't hurt to imagine my pillow as her, does it ?...

And.... I would love you pinching my ears. You are one of the very few who has the privilege to do that !

Seems that girl have a lot to learn in life my Voldi. She will be hurt as she has hurt you. It works like that in life, unfortunately. Good bye to her then. And as for this J, just be careful, okay. No heart will tell it what to do, EVER. Believe me. As for the ears, i'll come and visit then.

Hello Hatley, I wish i had replied earlier, but mylot didn't let me. Oh, i believe i am old fashioned too. hehe. I am certainly not the type with many ex's and i don't understand what people look in for when they do such things. I want to have one true love all my life, but you know what i have learned a few things out of this. I am going to stay single now, at least till the time i find myself a good job and when i want to settle as a family. If i happen to fall in love before then it is different but i am going to stay single otherwise. Yes, you are right, i can't just keep waiting for the perfect one because no one is perfect you it's hard to find someone you fantasize, i will have to adjust, and even they will have to adjust to my drawbacks. I am pretty sure that my ex is going to stay single too, at least i know her that much.

Hello cream, :-) Sorry for the late reply. Yes, i am not going to think anything about her. I am fed of her status messages and i have finally blocked her. Now she can't see me, neither can i see her profile. I had too much of it, too much pain. I will never know why she wanted a break up and so let it be, i am not going to take her back anymore, she has been very unfair to me. Oh this 'J' that i am talking about is another girl, she is very pretty. She inspires me, make me want to believe that some girl like her is out there waiting for me, and waiting to come into my arms. I am sure when such a girl comes into my life everything is going to be nice.

Hello jaiho :) Oh she is not in for the regrets so soon.. She is just so stubborn and selfish and immature. She just lost me and i too happy she did. I have to thank her for giving me this awesome freedom. I feel so stupid to have cried when she said "Believe it or not, but i wanted to get rid of you for months" WOW! Filmy dialog... lol .. So good for me.. I am the free bird i wanted to, i stayed in the cage for two years and i actually cared and loved her..

Right now i am singing along this beautiful song !

celebrate freedom then

Hello jenny, mel. I am sorry, i was unable to post four days back and then i forgot about my own discussion. Me still in love with her ? NO.. I guess i can't help a few things can i ? Well, i am certainly doing quite well now though. I have her the key to my heart only to open it up, fill in, and empty it back in two years. :-/ Some girls are so selfish, Jenny..

Hi Mel. The problem is Voldie here does not want to admit that I am correct thats why he is not here yet...

Voldie, throw away the key and make a new one for me. I would color it with red, green, yellow, purple and pink to make it colorful... I am selfish, too. And possessive...

Hello carolscash, Believe me, she was most probably thinking about me when she put that up. She is very immature and resilient. She wants to forget me, as she think i was the one who didn't give her what she wanted ? And she starting liking another guy to forget me, and she didn't tell me a word!!! Apparently that guy left her too, because she again.. Doesn't want to be open about it ? Who in this world is going to stay with such a girl who always wants to be comforted and wants everything to be done in secrecy. She thinks so little about herself and is stubborn as hell. She needs comforting all the time, she doesn't want to meet you in person but just wanna say things via text messages and not even on the phone call. What is the guy supposed to know when she does it like that. Her new boyfriend is not to be blamed, but nobody can keep up with her if she wants things like that. I had enough patience to take care of her each time she said she is not feeling right about everything! I tried to explain it to her, that not everybody is perfect, and that everybody has their share of problems they won't talk about, you can't always keep worrying about yourself all the time. I truly loved this girl and we were in relationship for two years. She was the one to propose me, and she just lost her feelings for me for someone else ? Someone more handsome ??? I have seen that guy, and i still feel awkward seeing him! I still need time to get over this. She is so immature and childish, i pity her. That saying is right, but i know she put that up for me, and for her new and lost ex2. I have to get myself someone who is going to give that reassurance and caring. Noone can always keep loving when they don't even feel that the other person loves them ? I have a foolish heart and i now i feel like i have been used... So badly. I failed to see what she actually wanted. She just wanted some virtual guy she could depend on, and i am not one of them!! I serious towards commitment and God knows how much i cared for her, in fact i am being stupid but i still do care about her. I just want to stop myself from even thinking about someone like her!! God help this girl!!

Hello Robswife, a warm welcome to mylot. You are soo right ..! She doesn't know a thing about relationship. She is so immature!! She thinks she should be open to others when she is in a relationship with me ???? What ? This is NOT an open relationship. If she was losing her feelings for me, she should have confessed it to me. And now she says she has been wanting to get of me since months !! ?? She is just so SELFISH and UNFAIR . And she managed to fool me so easily, would you believe if i said she was the one to make the first move towards our relationship and i accepted it! I should have known what she wanted, and i am a very serious towards commitment. I have been stupid enough to give myself to someone i don't deserve, at all. Thank you for responding to me, Robswife. I feel so nice now. :)

Hello cyberfreak, Welcome to mylot. :) You know, i did that small sacrifice for her. I thought she needed time, but from my side i wasn't doing the same as her. I introduced her to my friends and i really wanted to because i loved her and was looking forward to our future, and i thought she needed time to tell her friends about me. Anyways.. Now she is gone and i think it is the best thing that happened to me, she has been quite a lot of burden to me at times and i find it ridiculously troubling that i was willing to carry the load. It's good that she is gone.