Do I need a therapist ?
By llsling
@llsling (331)
China
April 21, 2011 8:55am CST
I don't know how embarrassing it really is talking about the life of myself ,I am about to turn 25 in a few months and I've been getting myself into a terrible situation for my whole life . Well ,as far as I can tell my folks made the greatest impact on this . My Dad is the nicest guy I've seen in my life and I absolutely inherited that kind of quality . I never ever fought in my life not even yelled at any jerks and biatches . My mother ,I mean my birthmom ,seems to have all the bad annoying quality a woman could have .In my life she is just a mean ,unreasonable ,uncaring ,boring ,annoying that kind of typical bad person . But this is not what confuses me most but she does care about me . We've been struggling to get by ,she just does whatever she can do to pay my tuition ,expecting I can have a high degree and get out of this small town . I tried and did very hard to focus on my study but after my freshman year I finally quit . I know I almost got crazy at the moment ,but I had enough of all of this fake of world ,bs from the teachers ,silliness of the girls . I can't even take any girl out ,have a real date with 'em . I somewhat have a feeling that i may not really belong to this world . In the past few years ,i tried to collect myself and get in learning English . I got into a mindset if I can make it to go to other country and speak a totally different language maybe I can have a new life out there . But I don't know and i can't afford anything worse coming to me . Feel pretty relied just letting all this out and I never said a word to nobody about how I really feel
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12 responses
@obe212003 (2299)
• Philippines
21 Apr 11
from the looks of it, you need to seek psychological evaluation.. probably you've suffered from emotional abuse by your mother and you need to be guided accordingly as through the harsh realities of life...
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@obe212003 (2299)
• Philippines
22 Apr 11
then you have to be reconsider your thoughts that you certainly belong to this world, though being abused you're still cared for.. though adverse factors might have affected your mother, she still cares for you and doing anything she can to provide for you.. sometimes the whining and the ranting is way of getting stress out and unfortunately you're the person taking it, and in a way that should be a good reason to continue and not give up.. have time to seek advice from elders or friends... good luck!
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@dreamy1 (3811)
• United States
22 Apr 11
You have to stop blaming your mother for your problems you've already been raised now you are your own person. You have to accept her the way she is. What makes her a bad person? Has she abused you? Does she lie, steal, have bad mood swings? It's possible she may have an undiagnosed mental illness. She could be bipolar or any other type of illness. No one is perfect in the world. Maybe she can't help the way she acts. I'm sure she is doing the best that she can. Just as someone can be born with a physical disability some are born with mental issues.
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@sarahruthbeth22 (43143)
• United States
26 Apr 11
College isn't for everyone. And besides if you find you want to go back , you can. The hard part is finding what you want to do. Just sit and listen tou your heart. Try to find something you Love to do and then Go for it. If this means going back to school. Then go back. If the field you choose is overseas, then get a passport and go! In short I'm saying follow your bliss! And keep talking about your feelings to offline friends or here. Take it from me, it Does help! Take Care.
@sarahruthbeth22 (43143)
• United States
26 Apr 11
Yes to do Anything well you must follow your heart.
@3SnuggleBunnies (16374)
• United States
21 Apr 11
I don't think you need a therapist. I think you need a good friend(s) to talk with about things. Honestly the things you mentioned most people go thru so it's not like you are crazy for thinking that way. And your Birth Mother well maybe she thinks you are the one good thing she did with her life or feels that she didn't do enough for you so is making up for it now. People are people, they are the way they are and we have to accept that with or without explaination. But as long as she was never abusive or violent tward you personally, I think her behavior may not make the best role model but apparently you can count on her when she's needed.
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@savypat (20216)
• United States
21 Apr 11
You may need professional help. What I can tell you is that you will never run away from your problems. Just judging you from this discussion is very hard, I would say that you are very self absorbed. If that is so I would advise you to get outside yourself, turn all this negative energy into something positive. Find a job where you help others even if the pay is low that is not what you need the most from this job, you need to become involved with others in much greater need then you. There are always jobs like this in every country in the world so if you can just open yourself to this there will be one for you. Everytime you look at yourself, remind yourself that you are a good person and there is a good purpose for you to be alive. Don't be afraid to ask for help from what ever greater power you believe in. Blessings
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@tink91879 (742)
• United States
22 Apr 11
I believe everyone needs a counselor. we need someone who has no set feelings on us and who wont tell others to just listen. I saw a counselor for a few years and learned a lot from the sessions. I recomend it for everyone. we all have problems and need help figuring them out.
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@stephcjh (38473)
• United States
22 Apr 11
I truly hope things get better for you. We all go through some very hard and tough times, but if we keep our hesd up and look only forward, good things will eventually happen for you.
@SomeCowgirl (32191)
• United States
20 Jul 11
I don't like therapists, can't say that I really trust them. It sounds like to me you just need an outlet, and some set goals, a direction in your life. Take some time to yourself to figure out what you like and want, set a goal to get to what you want and go from there. We all go through bouts where we're just not ourselves and need a bit of a reboot and I feel like that's all you need.
You've accomplished plenty, you've learned english and maybe one day your dream of going to another country and speaking an entirely different language will come true. Don't give up on yourself, believe in yourself and you CAN go far.
I'm having to do a lot of believing in myself, and it's helping me, it's not easy, trust me it's not, bit it is possible. Remember, take baby steps and you'll get there one day.
@Anitismo (229)
• Bahamas
22 Apr 11
Probably you do need a therapist, but until then blog about your emotions ( especially anger) the sensations, just write and let it out. Cause at the end of the day, we are going to do the same thing the therapist is going to do give some advice and importantly listen.
@garson (884)
• United States
2 May 11
Do you have friends? Just like some responses here, you need someone to talk to whether it is a good friend, a therapist, or anyone you can trust.
You said, "I somewhat have a feeling that I may not really belong to this world". Thousands of people have been thinking like this when they are down, or having certain problems. Do you talk to your dad often?
@gloria14r (67)
• India
22 Apr 11
Nothing would help you as long as you are so rotten. You need to help yourself out of this situation and only you could do it, keep aside all the anger, grudge and stay focused to your future. You need some good education to be independent, don't think of your past, your mother, her attitude towards you. Do you think being anxious all the time would help you get rid of your problems, no way. You said your dad's someone you could trust all the time, and he has always been nice to you. So, though, not for you at least for your dad you got to be strong and move on with your life. Every thing's gonna be fine as long as you are fine.
@dlpierce (495)
• United States
24 Apr 11
If Mom's paying your tuition she can't be all bad. I understand how she wants so much more for you than she has. Maybe you just need a break from it all to collect your thoughts as to what to do next. I can't see how changing you citizenship is going to help you. The grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence. The people who love you are there and you will need all the support they can give you. You're young with the world at your door step. Hang in there and you'll figure it out on your own what kind of life lies ahead of you.
