When you find yourself at a crossroad and not sure which direction to take

Tough times are evident in every person's life; obviously everybody want a better and healthy life, which is quite impossible to hold forever. You cant hold off the bad times coming into your life, but you could be as strong as you can hoping for the best all along. Bad days are not forever, they come and go, so are the good days, once you suffered a bad, something good comes out of it. As they say : Everything happens for a good reason.

I am sorry you are feeling down and for your losses and I have been there myself and I know it is no fun and yes it is very exhausting and it can take a toll on your body and soul, but my friend life is too short please open up and talk to someone your friend, girlfriend, whoever might be close to you they will understand! You can't wear yourself down like that, God wouldn't want that from you or neither would anyone that loves you be strong and try to go out with friends, girlfriend, and take your mind off of everything and try and move forward there are a lot of good things in life but you have to move forward to find them, sometimes depression is and can be a killer and I know I don't even know you but you are here and I am listening well reading what you have wrote and it breaks my heart to see anyone in pain like that!! Take care my dear and go out and enjoy life it is too short!! Hope to see yyou posting happy next time!!

I am sorry that the last four years of your life haven't been enjoyable due to bad things happening to you. It is a shame but totally understandable that you are suffering from depression. I think that you could write a letter detailing all your feeling for that best woman. Then you could put it in a drawer and tell yourself that will make you feel loads better. When you see that lady friend you could just speak to her like a friend. I think you could write a list of three things that could make your life happier. It might be reading because it is possible to get into a really great story and this could give you some happiness. The second thing might be some sort of exercise like walking for example. The third thing might be spending time with a lovely pet. I have got two dogs and they are wonderful. Good luck.

Being at the crossroads is a pivota time in our lives., the choice we make will be one to direc the path of of our future. if we choose unwisely, we can be disappointed. when we choose with our hearts, we can find deeper joy.

Yes you can cope. If I were you I would ask God for help and maybe join a church that you are comfortable with. Spill your guts to your lady friend. You need some one to talk to. You have had many bumps in the road but that is what they are bumps and when you get over the bump and around the curve you will be fine. I have had a very tough life and always my faith in God has gotten me through all. There is no better power and love than God. I do not mean to preach nor force you into any religion. I am trying to help. Every thing that you do not like in your life do the opposite and make a lesson out of it. Please consult a professional if you have to. Life is full of God's surprises and how we use his test is a lesson. May you very soon find that your life is worth a whole lot and monetary is monetary. Grieve your parents and always remember the love they had for you. May God bless you and guide you through this hard time.

Go with what your heart tells you to. Think about which one is a better choice!

It sounds like you have a lot to give someone, possibly the lady friend you mention. You should first realize how much you deserve in your life and realize you are the only one who has control on your destiny and the only one who has the power to change it. I think you should tell your lady friend how you feel because after all, you have nothing to lose. At least you will know the answer. You won't lose her as a friend if she doesn't share the same feelings. You could get out a piece of paper and write down what you want to say to her and practice a few times to give yourself some confidence and when you call, you can read that piece of paper if you forget. You should also write yourself a path, something to guide you. Drawing pictures helps too. You can draw yourself where you are now and then at the bottom of the paper, draw where you want to be in x amount of time. You have a lot of space in between so brainstorm what needs to be changed, added, etc in this space to get where you want. I think involving yourself in activities new to you is always a good thing because you see things from a new light. Be more social so you don't feel so alone. Do the things you will be proud of yourself for doing, and you will make it to where you want to be.