Over 7 years of this, I'm so sick and tired of it.

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In November 2003 I had an accident at a job I was working at. It was a temporary assignment and it was thankfully my last day there. I had ignored the warning signs, I needed to keep working, and I didn't think it was important. I had been on the top of a store ladder and went to turn around on it and my back started hurting me. But that was the warning sign I ignored. I continued on with my work, which was stocking shelves with seasonal merchandise. So, my work took me to the bottom shelf where I had to get under the second one to put stuff away. It wasn't so bad at first, I was able to do this without a problem, but then suddenly the pain flared up in my back so bad, I couldn't move. I couldn't get out as I couldn't move, good thing I had people around me who realized that something was wrong and called for help. I had to be pulled out from under the shelf, it turned out that a nerve had been pinched severely in my back. I was told at the hospital that it was a sciatic nerve injury. No one told me that it would never go away. I had started to see a chiropractor after that, but this guy clearly didn't know what he was doing with me and wound up temporarily paralyzing me after a treatment. I stopped going to see him, but still needed to see something for this issue. I was apprehensive when I was referred to another chiropractor, but this one has been good to me. However, since then, I have gained a lot of weight which I know isn't good for my back, but so far, there's no reason behind this, no way to treat the weight gain. The pain has been getting worse over the years, I've had to see my chiropractor almost weekly for preventative maintenance, my spine is out of alignment and that just compounds the nerve damage as my spine presses on the nerve. Every time my spine is out of alignment, the pain is always the worst. Yesterday I was ignoring more warning signs while at work. I was only driving and walking, but my back was protesting everything I was doing. As long as I was sitting, it wasn't so bad, but working was painful. But by the end of the day, the worst of it seemed to have gone away, and I didn't think anything of it. I went to bed last night, knowing that I'd be in some pain, I usually am when I go to bed and try to turn over. But it was far worse last night than it ever has been. I couldn't move at all without being in agony. Every move was painful. But the worst was yet to come, something I had never felt before in my 7 years with this problem. I grabbed onto the bed post to try to turn over, and the pain shot down my leg, worse than usual. But that wasn't the worst of it. I had a streak of numbness down the outside of my leg, about an inch wide from my hip to my knee. I'd never felt that before and it was very scary. I'm contemplating a move that I would rather not make, as I'm a person who would prefer to be working as opposed to staying at home. I'd make more money working outside my home than at home, but if it comes down to it, I'd stay home on disability just to be as pain free as possible. Like I said, I'd rather not, and there's always a good chance of being denied, but for $1k/month guaranteed income wouldn't be too bad, even though it would be far less than I earn when I can work. The problem is, I'm not willing to work an office job, I did that for years and couldn't stand sitting at a desk all day. At least at home I can get up and do things to get away from it all. I just don't know what to do, I have been dealing with this for so long that I just can't do it anymore. Even at this moment, that same numbness is going through my leg. I wish I could figure out some sort of relief for my back, but lying on the floor is not an option.