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Hello again mylot, it has been a while since my last post...i found out that when i'm sad, depressed, i like writing on mylot, telling people what i've done, what happened to me... Sooo this is it, i'm in deep sh*t now...hope that sh*t is a word that i can use on mylot cuz i can't find another one that fits the situation... I'm a man that needs someone to be there for me and to be there for her, i need affection, i want to know that i'm needed by someone, that someone thinks of me...etc..etc I have trouble in relationships, my luck isn't here anymore, i had a relationship with a girl for 4-5 years, she was great, it ended 6 months ago, very sad, we had a fight on the phone, a very lame fight, and we stopped speaking. and since then we haven't changed a word, i don't even know what she is doing now. anyway that passed kind of hard....dreams with her every night, seeing her in my dreams lying in my bed, sleeping so sweet that i never wanted to wake up, just wanted to stay by her side and watch her sleep...yeah, GREAT! huh? Next it was a girl that i told you about here on mylot, the dancer, she was nice to me, i still respect her that she told me that we can not have a relationship because she is dedicated to her career, and wouldn't have time to spend with me. i talked to her recently ,she is doing fine, found a college abroad that could help here fullfill(don't know how to write this word, but u get it) her dreams. Glad for her:) Now i'm having another problem:| Last week i met a girl, she was soooooo cooool, i've fallen in love, she is open minded, she has unique ideas, she is beautiful, she likes me, she told me that i'm the only person that made her feel like a child, protected, wanted, loved, treated like she needs to be treated... Thing were uber great untill today....she told me that she has a boyfriend:| cool huh? I was struck by lighting in that moment, i didn't know what to say, didn't know how to react. the thing is that she told me , that their relationship is something that it is there just to be there, she doesn't feel something for him, she isn't happy with him, i just don't know if i should believe her, to trust her... I told her what i feel for her, told her that i'm not gonna make her choose. said to her that if those things that she told me, how she feels when she's with me are true, then she should think at what she wants...what she thinks it is best for her... If she says that she really wants a relationship with me i'll be really happy , if she doesn't i'll be really happy that i met a girl like her...and move on with my life... all i have to do is wait...she is the girl worth waiting for...i think... I wrote this here not to ask an opinion but for you guys to feel sorry for me...and i know that these are little problems that are about relationships...but for me are things that kill me inside-out...