should i confess or not?

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Im in a thin line between guilty or not guilty, i did something terrible in the past, now its hunting me indirectly. here is the story: 5yrs ago i was very active with hard drugs infact i am a serious underground dealer, during my days then as a drug dealer there is this young girl living in my hood her mum runs a restaurant and she helps her mum out in the restaurant almost all the time, i am a regular in their restaurant and her mum likes me with passion that way her daughter become fund of me her name is sheila, she was 14yrs then. One day sheila came to my house cos she never knew what lies beneath my mask so she is not afraid of coming to my house and that day i was so high that i cant even recognize anything around me, when i regained conscious i saw sheila naked and unconscious on my floor with blood all over her laps and i was like what have i done immediately i secured my apartment i took her to bathroom clean her up and help her to regain conscious, when she woke up she was sobbing and was staring at me i was so so moved with her looks that i almost wept as she was sobbing, i have never being so emotional like that before, immediately i summoned courage and ask her to stop crying when she refused i brought out my pistol and threatened to kill her if she ever cry or tell anyone what happened here today i was so mean that she believed me with fear, after a while i took her back to her mums restaurant and i was amazed by the she pretended as if nothing ever happened i was happy with that but not comfortable. 3Days later i was coming back from a meeting with the drug lords and getting to house i opened my door only to see sheila lying down on my sofa wearing only her undies immediately i raised my gun and i check the apartment to see if it was a setup but it wasn't, i came to her and woke her up and she greeted me with a passionate kiss i was amazed again, i removed my jacket and she came to me and ask me how was my day and i said perfect i now asked her how did she gain access to my apartment she said that i shouldn't bother, we made love that day and after that she became a regular in my house along the line i introduced her to drugs. she later become my errand girl, all these are happening just between us. then on 12th June 2005 something terrible happened sheila accompanied me to a biz trip in a nearby town along the line something went wrong and their was a shoot out i shot 4 guys that day ad sheila was driving for me, the cops got a distress call from anonymous caller and we are being chased on our way our car crashed i managed to escape and with my condition i cant help sheila out and she was later arrested and jailed on the ground that she must provide her accomplice before she will be granted bail, she has served for five years. from the spot of that incident i went AWOL till date. Sheila will be arraigned in court for another hearing next month. Now im no more in drugs i have job and a mechanical workshop and i am in relationship with another girl whom i love with all my heart and she is pregnant for me right now i planned to settle down with her, i have tried the much i can to forget what happened between i and sheila but the more i try to forget it the more it freshens up in my mind i am not at peace at with myself all these years whenever i remember her, im on wanted list but i ve changed my identity long ago. i keep on blaming myself for everything that she has being through. Please if you are reading this i will like you to advise me on what to do, should i confess to set sheila free or should i move on with my life with my new found love?