I miss my mom
By leegumz
@leegumz (15)
Kenya
June 2, 2011 8:38am CST
When my mother was still alive we used to fight about everything,i always thought she was against me and that she hated me.I was and is still my daddy's girl and so i used to spend a lot of time with my dad.Then my mom fell sick for a year before she passed on and it was the worst year of my life.I wanted to shaare in her pain but the rift between us prevented us from doing so.when i learnt of her death something inside of me died too,i realized how much i loved her and how much i needed her in my life.a month after her burial i found out that i was three months pregnant and now whenever i see my son i realize how much i miss her and the pain and guilt i feel has never gone away.
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@hardworkinggurl (37063)
• United States
3 Jun 11
It is understandable to feel this way but as a mother myself I want you to know that she is up in a better place wishing and hoping you will be happy. Mothers never hold a grudge when it comes to their children. Please do not be sad and I tell you what may help you a bit, is that you write a letter and do not mail it and or allow any one to see it.
Simply write it and say to in it exactly how you feel. Compel yourself to apologizing, though truly she knows how much you love her. This is just so you get off your chest and be able to somehow release it.
She would want you to be happy and would not want you to have any absolute regrets. Do not forget that when people pass and become Angels they do not want us to have sad, bad or regrets.
I saw from your response in my topic how caring you really are, therefore do your best to say to yourself that she is happy for you having been in her life. I hope you can release it somehow and continue to remember absolutely anything wonderful about her and not any bad feelings.
Wishing you all the best, my prayers to you and yours on. 
