I'm scared of sleeping
By locakai
@locakai (166)
United States
June 3, 2011 1:13am CST
After all that has happened I do not like to sleep. I'm scared of what will happen when my love is up and I'm asleep. I cannot talk about it because the investigation is still ongoing. We are seeking justice. I can say this, It shouldn't had never happen. If you drink in this park where we staying at the rule is to keep your drinking in the house. If the law is called on you or your company than that is an immediate eviction. I'm so stressed from the last couple of days, that sleep has come and go.
I'm tired of not be able to feel safe enough to sleep. Even when my hubby is close it seems not be to safe enough, although it happened to him, he didn't deserve it.
We are going to go see what we can do about the situation. Oh, he is in so much pain. I am so thankful that is wasn't worse. I probably couldn't had handled it, if he was still in the hospital. I wish I knew what to say or do to make his pain to go away.
He can't work because of this now. Please, keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
And sleep and I can once again be one.
Thank you mylot for the support. I enjoy writing/typing. I really do hope there are some good people in the world.
I'm going to bed now, to see if sleep welcomes me, into its still, dark, and creative place.
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8 responses
@marapplestiffy (2182)
• Philippines
4 Jun 11
ooh, at first I was also clueless about why your stressed out to the point you can't sleep but I saw your comment above and now I understand...
Just make sure that your hubby or you would not go outside after dark and make sure also that the locks are secure so you can have a good night's sleep...I hope that some justice would be done...
Just a suggestion, next time share the reason why so we wont have to wonder about it
, I hope you wont take it in a bad way
, I hope you wont take it in a bad way1 person likes this
@locakai (166)
• United States
4 Jun 11
No I won't take it the wrong way. I just can't say or type to much since its still an ongoing investigation. My door is always locked, unless its in the day and pups need to go out, we go out with them. It's sad, very sad. But my pups make sure I stay asleep.
@locakai (166)
• United States
4 Jun 11
I sleep in spurts, and they are always with me. No matter, my female and the other pup have each side, she curled up around my tummy area, and he gives me licks until my eyes close, and lays down. I can only sleep so long. It may be 15 min to 40 mins but it still sleep. I am trying to pass the 40 min mark, but that's a challenge, its okay. Pretty soon I be okay, this situation will be resolved, and I can go back to my 10 hours per day schedule.
@LOTRLUVER (14)
• United States
3 Jun 11
as I can sense there is some tenstion between you and your significant other, and what I can also tell is that he has abused you, or taken advantage of your trust in some way. in which case, it's the bodies natural response to be completely on high alert because of what has happened. I would suggest staying with a friend until this investigation blows over, because if you stay there you will most likely not be able to get the rest that you need, not to mention that it is probably not a good envirement to be in right now for you.
@cream97 (29087)
• United States
5 Jun 11
Yes, I think that you both should try to stay somewhere else being that your husband was assaulted by two guys that you knew. I know that I would be afraid to sleep at night if this had to happen to me too. I pray for both of you to remain as safe as possible.
@locakai (166)
• United States
3 Jun 11
He hasn't abused me, he was was assaulted outside right by my car by drunks, that is all I can say for now...Thank God, it wasn't worse. But they still come in the park. I'm afraid, because I knew two of them. It was a good day, till that happen. He has not ever abused me in anyway. I wear the pants, lol. He knows if he every abused me and I leave, he can't ever have me back.
@LOTRLUVER (14)
• United States
3 Jun 11
Alright that makes sense, sorry for assuming. in that case you both might want to stay somewhere else until this is resolved and they no longer hang around your house. trying to live a normal life in a situation that is anything but normal is almost impossible.
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@moonchild117 (1987)
• Philippines
3 Jun 11
To be honest, I don't exactly know what kind of a situation you are in, but I do hope that whatever challenge in your life this is, you will prevail. Just stay strong and hang in there.
@JamieHenriques (200)
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3 Jun 11
I hope you calm down and well concern and fear is an autmoated response especially after what happened to your other half. I have to admit I had no cluse what you were talking about at first only when I read the first comment I understood as a whole. Never resot to sleeping pills. Try to tire yourself out get a Wii or something to exercise indoors, if you fear the outside world. You'll tire yourself out and then sleep. After a few days of rest and everything everything should settle and things should be back as normal.
@locakai (166)
• United States
4 Jun 11
He been taking me out for the last couple of days, he knows that the Texas weather esp. in the summer can tire me out. I feel asleep on the way home, know he was there made it better. Then I came home and did mylot, and sent emails. My pups were ready for a nap, they wouldn't leave me alone, until I went in the room with them. LOL my pups are awesome by the way. They know me two well. My female pup, she knows that I haven't been sleeping. And she tries to comfort me. When we laid down, she was right beside me curled up by my stomach, when I moved, she moved. She never left my side. My other pup was on the other side, he wouldn't stop licking me on my cheek until I closed my eyes.
When I got up,they did too. They been watching me, I know they worried, but its hard to tell dogs that you're okay. Lol. Thanks for the advice.
@rhannealmoite (338)
• Philippines
3 Jun 11
I hope you get over with that. We all needs to sleep so our body will function normally.
I love sleeping, It has been my habit when I was a kid. :)
@cream97 (29087)
• United States
5 Jun 11
Hi. locakai. Welcome to myLot! I am very sorry that you are unable to sleep like you would want to. I don't know as much about your circumstance, but I hope that whatever it is, that you will get through this. Both you and your husband. I will keep you in my earnest prayers so that God can get you both through this. I hope that you both can get some sleep, because your body needs the ample amount of rest each day. Take care of yourselves and may God be with you both as his love gives you two strength.
I am very sorry that you are unable to sleep like you would want to. I don't know as much about your circumstance, but I hope that whatever it is, that you will get through this. Both you and your husband. I will keep you in my earnest prayers so that God can get you both through this. I hope that you both can get some sleep, because your body needs the ample amount of rest each day. Take care of yourselves and may God be with you both as his love gives you two strength.
@locakai (166)
• United States
3 Jun 11
The sleep wasn't great, but I did get some. The only problem is that I was hearing noises through the house. Then my dogs started to bark. My hubby took his pain medication so he was sleeping heavy. I got my spray, and my bat, and walked into the leaving room, and the TV was left on with a cat meowing on the screen. That is why the dogs were barking. It took a while for me to calm my nerves. I drank some tea, got on mylot, facebook, twitter, and etc..., then turned off the TV. It took three hours for me to calm down and go back to be, my husband woke up and came into the leaving room...When he came into the living room, he notice my bat. He such a dear, he came and held me until was sleeping, but all I had was nightmares. The thing is he was the one that was attacked not me, and I feel more violated than he does. I guess, men have different ways in dealing with things like that.
