I'm thinking it AGAIN! duhhh.
By edsss17
@edsss17 (4394)
Philippines
June 6, 2011 11:58pm CST
At the age of 15, I had my first boyfriend, he was 18 that time I guess.
They say, first love never dies.. I don't if does or does not!
But there's something bothering me..
I always think about him, accidentally! When I'm doing something, He accidentally come on my mind. Like, when I'm writing essays, I stop for a while and think then its like there's a big screen in front of me and the memories flash back... We used to write essays together before!!
We were together for only 3 months but I can say what we had was special. What we had was real.. Things just didn't went good enough for us!
But I'm pretty sure, I'm over him.. Its just the memories! :) I'm focusing on my studies now, and its pretty fun.. Its nice to be single!
Do you ever think about your first love?
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11 responses
@abatencila (970)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
Yes, sometimes but not because I'm still in love with him. It is just that even though we are not in the relationship anymore they still became part of our life and we are good friends until now that I am happily married.
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@mtrguanlao (5522)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
Hey friend,good to see you again,haha!
Is your hubby out for work again?
I agree with what yous said! But me and my first love are no loneger friends,last time I heard about him is he's now living in Malaysia for good with his family.
See yah!
@Danielle1988 (23)
• United States
7 Jun 11
I am still with my first :) We have been together for 6 years now, but I know several people who still think about there first love from years ago. I know if I was to ever lose him..I wouldn't be able to stop thinking about him.
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@visavis (5934)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
In my age now very seldom to have a flashback of my first love or second love or whose the real one... but to tell you this my first love is my classmate in elementery school, she is beautiful and she knows my family and her family too. Her family is known for something bad to others I don;t know how to explain that (witch) may be the reason that love not pursue but I like here very much.. At present sometime if I have with my family in the province I still saw her with her family own...
@chuyins123 (2112)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
I was smiling while reading this post.
Quite a post to make me reminisce my past. True enough, it's not that we haven't gotten over with anything from the past but it's just that memories do cross our mind every now and then.
I would say, LOVE has no age requirement. So it could be love, but as you've already said it, things just didn't went good enough for both you.
I have always thought of this "being in love (real LOVE) wouldn't always mean you should end up married..." I've known a lot of people that are in love with each other, but didn't end up as couples, but just friends. Because it's not all there is in life, we have our priorities, our family, our career, or like you your studies.
I wish you well in your relationships though. Stay in love. Stay inspired. God bless.
chuyins
@chuyins123 (2112)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
It's always a pleasure to respond to your discussions. And hey, just a few hours ago, I was already declared officially single. Yes, I broke up with my girlfriend.
See my post for more details.
Happy for you though! Stay inspired Edsss...
chuyins
@edsss17 (4394)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
Hi chuyins!
Thank you again for your meaningful response!
True enough! There are people who are quietly inlove with each other but they're not couple.. I don't know how could they handle that kind of love, it must be hard, isn't it?
I am not love right now, my friend . But inspired, yes, I guess! HAHAHA!
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@mtrguanlao (5522)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
So you had your first love at 15?! I don't think that's first love bunso,lol! It is right to say that he is your puppy love. Anyways,you're still young so you don't know yet,hehe!
As to your question,at times yes,bunso,haha! I believe it's normal that we still think of him. I even still dream of him bunso,yay! But I'm also like yours,the feeling's gone. He will just be a part of me bunso,a part of my history..one part that has made me what I am now,made me mature in life.
See yah bunso! Enjoy your student life!
@mtrguanlao (5522)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
@Edsss..waaaa!!! I don't believe it! You had all your love at an early age?! Well,age doesn't matter ewhen it comes to love,true! But I really don't think it is first love,haha! As if I'm the one who fell in love,haha! I know for sure you'll have another love of your life and maybe by that time you'll say your inay is correct,lol!
@suny..hey friend,you always have the habit of changing avatars every now and then,haha!
Haha,do I sound like a teacher suny? Well,it's fine. Am just telling what I have experienced in love,hehe!
@edsss17 (4394)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
@inay: I know.. and I know that "that" real love can wait for me. I've promised my parents that I'll pursue my studies first before entering another relationship again.. I don't want to disappoint them and take note, my mom gets the number of all my profs and classmates just to monitor my every movement.. Instead of getting irritated about it, I feel happy.. Because my mom will spend her time just to monitor what I'm doing and to make sure I'm doing good!
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@thatgirl13 (7294)
• South Korea
7 Jun 11
Yep!! I wish he'd just get out of my bloody memories but somehow somewhere he's still there . It bothers me a lot to be honest. I mean he has a girlfriend and is in a different place and even if we had a chance to be together, I never would give in, but still ughhh I don't knoww !!!
@mansha (6298)
• India
7 Jun 11
Oh that was just puppy love and not the first love though you may not realize it right now. Love will find you someday and that would be more consistent and lasting. We all have memories of our first crushes and many end up marrying them too. May be regret later but you never know. When I look back I remember too but then it was just excitement of having someone take an interest in you and I am actually glad that it didn't blossom in to something. You don't forget people because they have touched apart of your life but you do out grow them. Thankfully it happens for the best.
@sweetgirl_k1 (3972)
• United States
7 Jun 11
I'm actually still friends with my first love. I have him on my facebook page and if I see him out somewhere I will stop and talk to him. My husband knows him and he speaks to him too if we see him out. He's a nice guy. He has a child now and is engaged to a girl and she's nice too. I don't have any desire to go back with him but I am still his friend.
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
8 Jun 11
Yes, I do think about him from time to time and it has been over 40 years! It was so cool while it lasted and we still are friends and talk from time to time. It really was real and what was real was the friendship part. WE grew up and away from each other romantically but I'll always consider him one of my dearest friends.
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
my lady,
You remember the boy but the feeling anymore -sounds like that (~_~)
I still remember my first love-who is my ex-hus,but there's no feeling anymore.
I also remember my first crush when i am 13,he is my classmates in highschool.
Remembering someone who made special memories is a natural thing,esp when you are doing something,like you wrote here that you remembered your first love when you are doing something that relates with those past moments that you and him shared.
We cannot avoid it my lady...the memory lane has so much space for our memory.
How we wish there is a deleted button so we can deleted unwanted folders and put those ones in the trash bin and delete forever.
Or if only we can reformat our memory and leave only those happy events in our back up files right? (^_*)
This is life my dear...it's we reminisce and memories are keep coming/flashing back.
What matters most is...how strong we are to keep moving on.
Enjoy life dear...you are still young and still has a long way to go
@jaiho2009 (39141)
• Philippines
7 Jun 11
typo err
You remember the boy but NOT the feeling anymore -sounds like that (~_~)
@lilbabycatapillar (497)
• United States
7 Jun 11
I think you really could have been in love at 15, but, I want to know why it didn't work out for you!
My first relationship was not loving at all, and it only lasted a month. I was 16 and he was 17. I think he only went out with me because some other girl broke his heart, so he didn't respect me or care about me at all. He would never call me, and when he finally got bored of me, he just kind of broke up with me.
I was very very upset, because I gave him everything, and whenever he had a problem, I was there, but he never showed me any compassion. I guess I kind of hoped he would.
I do think of it every now and then, mostly because I'd be upset that I could ever be treated with such disrespect.
But I was disrespected by a guy some time after that, and he gave me a sincere apology, though he didn't want to see me again. After that, I really don't think about that one.
I think it's about closure. It's nice to have a sense of peace afterwards, for someone to apologize. Otherwise, there are feelings left unanswered.