I want to die

Alex , have you heard of the law of attraction?It states that you attract what you think.Anyway you feel that life is not worth living so you are not going to lose anything by giving it a try.Just keep making a list of all that you are blessed with .You will be in an attitude of gratitude.As you start practicing this you will find to your surprise that all you desire in your life will start coming to you.Just take some time to read the book titled 'Ask and you shall receive it ' by Jerry and Esther Hicks.