Have you ever thought of taking your own life?

@jazel_juan (15746)
Philippines
June 14, 2011 3:10am CST
Honestly. Because i myself can say that there are times when i do think of this ( those very depressing moment..i even think i am bi polar..but maybe not lol) But really, let us be honest and admit it..it sounds morbid i do see myself at times hanging my own self lol but i know i cannot do it.. when i see the kid's smiles, its enough for me realize it is not worth it and i do not have the power to do it.
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26 responses
• United States
15 Jun 11
jazel_juan If you have even once had this thought I think it is a very un healthy thought nothing unkind met by that.Maybe question why you may be having these thoughts and if you think you are bi polar please ask for a Doc. help. And I agree that one smile from your child or any child can melt any heart please be careful not to ever let your depression take away from them.God bless you and I will pray for you.
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@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
thank you for the prayers fire.
• United States
15 Jun 11
To be honest with you, I don't think that thought has ever crossed my mine, at least not that I can remember. I have however had the thought of just disappearing, vanishing and leaving everything behind, but like you said when I see my children and my hubby I realize that everything will pass and it will be okay. Sometimes it takes a bit longer than others and most of the times I plan a quick get-a-way and leave with them so that I could leave our problems behind.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
i guess a time for leisure is also needed to refresh ones mind.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
yes going away and make a new you sounds easier..that also crossed my mind..but like you i could not do not, i do not have the courage to leave my children and family behind.
• United States
16 Jun 11
Don't take me wrong, I don't leave my children nor husband we always go together, I could never leave my family behind no matter how bad things may seem, my family is my world and where I go they come with me. I am exactly like you, I could never think about leaving my children, so when I want to escape I always make it a family outing, either to the beach or a theme park.
@urbandekay (18278)
14 Jun 11
To consider taking your own life gives you the freedom to become someone else. Think all the best urban
@urbandekay (18278)
14 Jun 11
If you seriously consider taking your own life, then those things in your life you value or desire are outweighed by negative things therein. Therefore, reinvent yourself, become someone else; abandon those things you hold dear, even abandon the antipathy you feel towards other things. Start afresh, choosing only that which pleases you and promotes your well-being, nurture taking joy in small things all the best urban
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
yes i believe that is right and well i have been thinking of doing stuff that i love like painting..travelling and stuff..and well i am not that depressive lol..that just actually came into my thoughts
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
14 Jun 11
hmm can you explain that further? because my mind is just so cloudy today.
@aerous (13434)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
Before I am going to comment on this. I would like to know why are your doing such terrible things. Because me too, I tried end my life before but due to constant thinking. I realize such plan is not really a good idea...
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
i am not yet doing anything aerous, i am just thinking of it...these are just thoughts and not yet put into action and no i wont ever put it into action.
@aerous (13434)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
You've done the right decision, friend. This what happen to me before when I heard something not nice about my partner. This is also the reason I loss my business and now I have nothing left only my life... Just do the right way, friend. All things will be happen with reasons. What happen, friend?
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
13 years ago, when i had a very heavy problem, i thought of killing myself. But, not by hanging, but by taking lots and lots of sleeping pills. However, i cannot just buy them over the counter without prescription. I was afraid of feeling pain in order to die , so i chose not to anymore. Besides, i realize my daughter will take the pain of losing her mother and my husband, her wife. My sister brought me back to myself when she brought me to her prayer meetings. Thus, began my real encounter with God.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
Wow now atleast i know i am not alone. Maybe that is why i am also afraid to do attend prayer meetings and such because i know it will be too emotional...
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
Maybe.. it is a good time for me to think about it is and deal with my relationship with God.
@SIMPLYD (90722)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
I tell you jazel, when i first have the prayer meeting i was a bit shy to share. But hearing their problems, i realized i am not alone in having them. I also realized there are other people who have far more heavier problems. After i have shared , i am hooked to the prayer meetings. It's really so nice and relieving to attend those prayer meetings. It started my liason with GOd, until now.
@gamma9967 (607)
• India
16 Jun 11
Yes even i have thought that but i never will again because i wanna live the life and enjoy it and yes there are bad times sometimes but that does not mean one should kill oneself.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
18 Jun 11
yes we must all accept what is there in life and got to have the strength to get through it.
• India
18 Jun 11
Life is a gift by God and therefore we don't have the right to kill our self and it is a big sin.Life is a bundle of joys and sorrow so one must consider that and live the life accordingly.
@KrauseHome (36448)
• United States
19 Jun 11
Well, there have been times in my life due to the severe trauma I had to endure from coming from an abused home as a teenager I went thru periods in my life where I was quite depressed and would have thought of doing something like this, even though I knew it was wrong. I was one who was always seeking help when I felt like this, and even had to take pills for the depression. But God is good and even with what I go thru now there is nothing he and I cannot handle together.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
22 Jun 11
True. I am also hanging on to my Faith in Him.
• India
16 Jun 11
No , never. Not even in my wildest dream did i thought of taking my life. If we have any problem then face it boldly. Running away from the saddest part of your life will make you more weakest. Fight it out and you will gain the confidence to bounce back.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
18 Jun 11
Strength is the word.
• Philippines
14 Jun 11
Honestly, I've never have thought of this. Life is just too precious to throw away like that. It sounds cliche but it really is. Maybe you're just focusing on the negative aspects of it that's why you're bringing yourself to that state. Try focusing on the positives. Being positive in life is very important, even the successful people might tell you that. Being positive will bring you to your goals and keep you away from nonsense thoughts like killing yourself. It's good though that you constantly realize that it's not worth it because it really isn't. It isn't even worth thinking of if you ask me coz you have a lot of things to do that can block away these types of thoughts completely, I'm sure of this.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
14 Jun 11
Yes honestly that is what i have been doing as of the moment..listing all what is good rather than thinking of the negative because i am just so down today.. its like there is too much to handle and i can't breathe.
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
Well, you can breathe if you want to. That's right, be positive and not just now but always. Don't care about the negatives, they'll all be gone soon.
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
Well, sometimes i think about that too, but i am not serious about it. You know, life is a gift and everything around us, so lets enjoy what God gave us. Besides, my lesson in life is, there is no problem that we could not manage because God will never forsake us. So i plan to really finish my journey. God Bless!
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
right, god will never forsake us and i must have more faith in him.
@macayadann (1235)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
No,because I am afraid to die. Good if you die quick but what if you are just hospitalized for the attempt of killing yourself, it is a big money to pay your bill and at the same time it is painful if the way is physical injury, overdosing is better. Oooops, I'm not giving options. Seriously, just look around because there are more depressing situations than you are. You can think better than those starving bothered by their hunger pangs. You have a long way to go and while still young do not focus yourself in just one goal have it branched to be more productive in your search for fulfillment. Happiness is not just smiling and laughing, the satisfaction deep within matters most. Be productive to yourself and to others so as your time will not be wasted by just staring to nowhere, do not get idle because as you do you are being tempted by evil thoughts.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
funny but yes i am also thinking of its consequences like what if it fail..and i would suffer more and my family would suffer more and the likes.. so i do not have the courage to do that and i fear God so i wont do that. I am just down lately that is why i am focusing myself on my children
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
No,I won't do it. There are many challenges in our life. I know I did survive some but there are some that really melts my heart. But that's life, no matter how ahrd it is, we should be strong enough to face problems for our love ones.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
glad to know there are so many strong and hopeful people that do believe in Faith and have been through a lot yet and are standign strong.. inspiring.
@SAMKAT (91)
15 Jun 11
No,i have never thought of taking my own life though i admit that many atimes one may feel like life is not worth livig but the solution is not to end your life but to look at those tiny things that make life worth living.Life is so precious and we can live it only once.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
there are so many precious things in this world, true.. but there are also pressing things that also gets into me.. hope i could sort it out
• United States
15 Jun 11
I used to think about taking my life until I gave life. I honestly used to get so depressed that I would cut myself to take away the emotional pain that I was feeling. 3yrs ago I gave birth to my son and he saved my life. I was headed down a path of self destruction and if I didnt kill myself im sure someone else would have. Bi-polar disorder runs in my family and while I have not been diganosed with the diease as of yet, Im pretty sure that I have it. When my son was born I looked at those eyes and every feeling of depression, hatred, self destruction, that I had seemed to melt into a pile of love. I have not cut my self in 4 years and my son and daughter are the reasons why. No problem is to big or to painful to tackle when I have the unconditional love of my kids. I have not had a sucicidal thought or tried cutting my self in 3yrs and 6mnths. I am in love with life, I love my kids and would never leave them here without me so help me god.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
this is heartfelt luvnmykids, we are on that path, the only thing that makes me NOT to do it is because of the kids.. i do not want them to grow up without a mother and i try my best to see what more there is to life and not minding the pain and troubles in life.
• United States
17 Jun 11
Its hard but I hold on to faith that I can overcome these feelings. When ever I have a thought or get down n out I just try and do things with my kids that are fun and can get my mind off it for a while. We will one day stop having these thoughts and moods and we will learn not to let things bother us.
@zandi458 (28102)
• Malaysia
15 Jun 11
Never never crossed my mind to take my own life even when I am in my deepest sorrow. God has given me this life, a chance I'll never get again. Moreover my mission on earth has not fully materialized yet. I don't want to cut short my worldly existence as I wish to see my children successful in life and allow me to see my grandchildren before I am willing to go.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
that is nice for you then.. and i believe you are a strong person within and out that is why it never occur to you to do such
@sanijas83 (270)
• Latvia
14 Jun 11
I remember I have to hold on, to carry on. There was a time it seemed I do not have any support. I still cannot forgive some things, I try to let them pass away. I should not spoil my life with destroying thoughts. I have thought that the life is too hard for me, but I should always feel the presence of God's eternal love burn inside.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
good for you sanijas, yes at times i do feel bad for having these thoughts but it does occur and i know it is not right..that is why i am taking time to list down and see what is good in my life and worth living for
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
NO way!!!Life is beautiful why you would think about that...Everybody has own problem or trials in life but it came in different circumstances.Sometimes i felt depressed also when i missed my family or i felt so down when too much problems i encountered but the best thing i've done when i felt all this thing was "PRAYING".I always prayed whenever i have problems, when i am depressed, and always think the good things that GOD gave me, and how lucky i am, and all my trials and suffering was not been half of the suffering of our father GOD, and now all these things that happened to us, we've been already to give up?and i always looked on the brighter side of my life,how lucky we are compared to the people who were on the streets no food, no shelter, but they survived, they don't have money for living, but they are surviving, they never give up, but they always continue to struggles in life.It was part of our life those struggles we were facing in everyday of our lives, those "ups and down", it made us more stronger to face the reality of life, and also we need faith in GOD in order to overcome those circumstances Those people were my inspiration, my family who always there because i knew that i need to cherished my life, to continued facing those trials....never give up life is beautiful
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
wow that is nice..how i wish i could always see things in that perspective.
@moneywinner (1864)
• Brazil
15 Jun 11
Not seriously, when I start to think in stuff like that I remind about my family and how sad they would be if I do that, and also because I don't think it worth it since there's always something to do to get your life better.
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
most do say that, there is always a solution to every problem..just that at times there are no easy way..
@dyeni23 (128)
15 Jun 11
Despite of all the trials that came my way. taking my life had never been an option for me on solving them. :)
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
16 Jun 11
good for you then dyeni...
• United States
14 Jun 11
i honestly can say i have like u i've been depressed and its not fun but i had to keep my head up high and tell my self that i have to always look at the positive side of life and always think positive and sometime u need help along the way but my kids are the reason y i live till this day :)
@jazel_juan (15746)
• Philippines
15 Jun 11
Yes it does happen and it is never fun to feel this way.. its like when at home i got to feel all of it especially when i am alone..but when i go out, i need to put a mask on so no one feels like i am feeling all this crappy feelings. My kids are also the reason why i am alive.