trapped in fear and paranoia

@tammy27 (1241)
Philippines
June 17, 2011 7:38am CST
since my father died, fear and paranoia caressed me. every time i go out of the house, i feel like the guy sitting next to me on the jeepney or the driver of the taxi im in is having evil plans in their head against me. every time i see those not-so-pleasant looking people in the mall i feel like they're up to something bad. every time my mom leaves and she doesn't come home as soon as i expect her to be (she always comes home as soon as her business out side our home is done) i will automatically panic. and even though i distract myself i cant avoid thinking that something wrong might have happened to her. i dont know what to do. is this trauma? due to my dad's death.... is this paranoia? or is this plain stupidity?? it's bothering me badly...
7 responses
ahsanzahid32
@ahsanzahid32 (5)
• Pakistan
18 Jun 11
Your problem seems to be complex... as far as i can think its is a reaction to the loss of your father... you might be feeling insecure in some way... God bless u....
tammy27
@tammy27 (1241)
• Philippines
18 Jun 11
i really hope this is insecurity... and nothing more serious. i hope this will be gone, fast. :(
labbuckzfox
@labbuckzfox (5)
• Philippines
17 Jun 11
Paranoia is a word that is frequently used in today's society to describe someone who is mistrustful in the way they view the world. You are just overly sensitive.
tammy27
@tammy27 (1241)
• Philippines
17 Jun 11
hi labbuckzfox. first, i wanna say, welcome to mylot. second, i wanna say, this is a pretty great answer as it is your first one. very helpful, direct to the point, and very comforting indeed. thanks for responding. happy mylotting.
myfb2009
@myfb2009 (8296)
• Malaysia
20 Jun 11
It is a pity that you have this kind of fear feeling since your father had left you and family. You will need to pray more and have a strong determination to overcome this fear. But, it pays to be careful whenever you are out from home, since there is no safe place in this modern world. Any time, any thing can happen, so it is wise to stay careful but not to the extend of making yourself live in fear or paranoia.
sophiecheer
@sophiecheer (931)
• Philippines
22 Jun 11
Indeed, inner struggle is imminent when we have had bad experiences at the past, especially when that involves our family. I think that you need to work on your fears gradually. It is not an automatic thing to overcome-I think we all need to get pass that phase.
krrish4victory
@krrish4victory (1)
• India
18 Jun 11
hello tammy...i red ur discussion.....sorry to hear that about ur dad....i think no can fillup what u lost...but past is the past...no one here longer...u have to spend ur time with ur friends then only u can come out of that mood....i know that ur pain...u only find the sollution.....any way im new to this discussion...keep in touch with me...
jonahh08
@jonahh08 (261)
• Philippines
15 Aug 11
Sounds like paranoia to me. Paranoia has many kinds and I think you fit in one of the categories. If it bothers you so much then maybe you need to seek help with a mental health provider or maybe a hypnotherapist.
celticeagle
@celticeagle (168126)
• Boise, Idaho
17 Jun 11
This is a normal reaction to trauma. I think you are experience Post Tramautic Stress. You really should see a professional therapist that can help you work through all of this that has been happening to you and your reaction to it. I would worry about the rest of my family if I had had happen what happened to you!