i am depressed..

@ellebj (784)
Philippines
July 8, 2011 6:21am CST
i feel like i am nothing but a below average person who don't know how to follow rules. Even how i tried to become a better person, I always ended up disappointing people because of my carelessness and stupidity. Yes, I feel like i am stupid because of this thing, I can't even follow simple instructions. I don't know how to make things better and always made it worst.. I am really depressed. My boyfriend is disappointed with me this day because I didn't follow his simple instruction to send him his application letter via email. But I sent to him the application with resume and picture which I sent to myself early in the morning yesterday.. My mom. I feel like I disappoint her because I can't think of yesterday because I am so tired to catch up with time. It pains me a lot..
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9 responses
• Valdosta, Georgia
9 Jul 11
It's okay to make mistakes, we all do. That doesn't make anyone stupid or below average at all. We all have those days or weeks or even months! You will get through this and in time it will be of almost no importance anymore. Cheer up! It will be okay. Your family loves and cares about you so they will forgive you too.
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
10 Jul 11
^_^ thank you loving..
@thetis74 (1525)
9 Jul 11
Oh don't be depressed my dear. I'm certain that the people who loves you will understand you and accept you for what you are. But next time, just make sure to try to focus and remember the things that you are asked to do well. The good thing is that you are aware of your mistakes and I am sure that you can handle getting things done well next time. I'm sure you can do it. Be positive all the time.
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
9 Jul 11
ok.. i am working on it.. thank you thetis.. maybe i could work better in an environment where i could be appreciated..
@steffi30 (105)
• United States
9 Jul 11
I know how you feel. I'm depressed too. All I really want to do is sleep. My job is thankless and under rated. The girls I work with all say one thing to my face and another behind my back. I'm tired of how they act and treat me...I'm looking for a different job. Trying to deal with the depression.
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
9 Jul 11
oh. i'm sorry to hear that steffi.. maybe you really have to try a different work but do you know why they hate you? don't be too depressed.. i think you need to find things. try to find and understand yourself and why they do that to you in order for you to build yourself and become a better one.. you can do that.. don't immerse yourself from depression too much because it will have bad effect on your being..
• United States
8 Jul 11
Everyone makes mistakes. Just try and learn from your mistakes. Do not be so hard on yourself. It sounds to me like you make simple mistakes so I would not worry to much about it. Have a Blessed Day
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
9 Jul 11
thank you emilyn.. i know that.. i'm just sad because of what happen even though it is simple.. because we are into long distance relationship now.. i'm not use to him getting upset when he is far away..
@Aryna120 (30)
• Malaysia
8 Jul 11
Don't try to hard to impress others because you will end up facing neevous breakdown if you can't keep up with the expectation. Don't worry, if your bf loves you, even your mum, they will accept you no matter how clumsy you are, they will laugh it up. But if they dont accept you the way you are, then that is their problem not yours. Don't think too much about it k..
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
8 Jul 11
Thank you Aryna.. I just sad because he didn't answer the phone. But i know we will be ok soon..
• United States
9 Jul 11
Ellebj, you are not below average nor are you stupid, overwhelmed is more the words I would use. We all have our days, but not completing a task, does not make you less a person. Each day you awaken, look in the mirror and Love what you see, and find, something in that day to smile about! Lift yourself up, at the end of the day, what- ever was spilled can be cleaned up, and started over! (smile)
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
9 Jul 11
ok.. thank you masterpiece..don't worry.. i am fine now. maybe i'm just a little depressed because my efforts are not appreciated and they just got angry..
@allknowing (136541)
• India
15 Jul 11
Admission of one's weakness is half the battle won. You need to take one step at a time and concentrate on just one area where you feel needs improvement. This approach will soon help you to ably handle situations. You could also spend some time on meditation that helps one's concentration power. Here is a link I quickly surfed for you. There will be millions such links but you might like to go through this and see if it helps. You have come to the right place and that is myLot where there will be so many to help you get over your depression. http://www.ehow.com/how_2319654_use-meditation-help-focus-concentrate.html
• United States
8 Jul 11
Look at the wonderful qualities you have.Don't try to think of all the bad.We all make mistakes and from time to time we feel bad about our self's.Its human nature to feel below avarage from time to time.Just try to work on what you need to work on until you feel better about your self.Remember no one is perfect and everyone is also special in some ways...Just love your self and stay focused on what you feel like you need to change :)
@ellebj (784)
• Philippines
8 Jul 11
thank you whisper.. I'm ok now.. i know it is our nature to commit mistake.. I'm just a little bit sorry for myself and my body is tired to follow all those request but still I end up scolded and them disappointed. I don't even know what to do. My boyfriend do not want to talk to me because of that small mistake. I tried to call him but didn't answer the phone. it wasn't the first time that I done something wrong. Though now it is just seldom, but i feel like i am nothing. The shy type who can't even stand up and shine in a crowd. But still i'm trying to become better.. Though lapses always come on my way.. I think clumsiness is my nature..
@nurseclare (2209)
• Philippines
15 Jul 11
Don't be so depress girl, that's to little. Juts try to be sorry tot hem and DON'T think of yourself as stupid for you're a wonderful person. I understand how you feel because girls are over sensitive. Just lok at it in the brighter side, you're not always careless. Don't push yourself so down.I'll pray for you to be strong. :) God bless