Im not happy anymore...

@Lxandra79 (1535)
United States
July 18, 2011 8:22pm CST
I have been with my boyfriend for 2 1/2 years now. He was soo lovable at first, and now he is just not. We dont have (***) anymore, not like that. I dont know what to do, if we break up, I have no where to go. I cant go to my moms place because she cant have more than 2 pplz in her rented apartment. Right now I have no job, Its hard to find a job if you only worked in catering pretty much all in your 20s. And right now im in no shape to work in catering anymore, my last baby just messed up my back. I want a man who I have some interest in with, my man now just is really into politics, and stuff im not interested in. The only thing we have in common are movies and tv shows, and he even said that thats not enough. My mother told me that no one will ever be with me cause I have 2 kids from different men, now I havent been with men back to back...no thats deff not me!...my kids are 10 years apart. I dont know what to do :( *Im just venting* (please dont give me negative remarks)
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11 responses
• Philippines
19 Jul 11
hi!i dont know about the system in your country but try to go in business training seminars like making cakes,pastries and anything that will give you money.focus in your two kids now not in having bf cause you had already failed twice in your lovelife.learned from the past for you to get up and move your life with your two kids.as what your mom said no man will ever be with you because of your two kids (even though i dont believe in this).wake up and don't make that mistake again in a third time.if you really need a man who will love you for what you are then PRAY,WAIT and most DON'T FIND HIM cause it will come to you in a right time.
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@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
How did I fail in life?? I have 2 wonderful kids! I never regret that. I dont think that I failed. How did you get from me not being happy to failing in life????
@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
omg, why did you just say I failed twice, you dont know me...you dont know what has happened in my last relationships but thanx, If I do break up with my current boyfriend that I still love, I know that I wont go looking for love (which I didnt do with my current boyfriend) but thanx for the advice.
• Philippines
19 Jul 11
Im not happy anymore.this is your title,right?you said you have two kids from different father,right?sometimes people cant move on when he/she doesn't accept his/her failure in life.do you think marriage is some kind of contract?no,of course.yes,i dont know you but my opinions based on what you've said.my sister face the reality and find a better solution.than you!
@SIMPLYD (90721)
• Philippines
19 Jul 11
You were so in love before , so why not try to regain that spark? It's a pity, if the 2 1/2 years you had with him will just go to waste. Try to initiate being loving so he can also be that. Remember, love begets love and hate begets hate. So it's better to give love.
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@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
He's my boyfriend. And I didnt say that I dont love him no more, theres still something there that I feel for him but I just wish he was the sweet loving guy like before :(
@SIMPLYD (90721)
• Philippines
19 Jul 11
So you mean to say you have no more feelings for your husband? If it is, then you can let go of him. There's nothing to fight for anymore, if that's the case.
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@kharlav (1669)
• Philippines
19 Jul 11
That's a problem indeed. I believe you should really leave your man because if u stay with him your heart will not be happy because you dont love him anymore. I dont think nobody would be interested in you. If very old women (with numerous accounts of divorce) still get married I am so sure that any man would be interested in you. Love does not depend on the number of children you have. Ask God for help and I know that He will really help you with your dilemma.
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@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
I didnt say I didnt love him anymore, I just said im not happy. I care about him, I do still love him though, just not that happy. I forgot to point out one thing, that we live with HIS mom. and this situation is making me tired of being here. I get soo happy when I go to my moms apt on the weekend So maybe thats why im not happy here at all!
@katie0 (5203)
• Japan
19 Jul 11
I'm so, sooo sorry for you. But dear, maybe it's time to break up then. I can see you miss *** but I'm sure you miss more how nice he was. Something is clearly wrong but if reach a point that he IS NOT NICE...no girl deserves that. He should value more, find happiness dear.
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• India
19 Jul 11
I fully support you. No one should lose his/her selfrespect.Why should we show them that we need them to live.Why should we give them the chance to play with our emotions?
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@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
I do miss more his cuddles and his random hugs and random kisses and his sweet talk more than the *** I just have to figure out where to get hired at. No one hires if you dont have experience, Ill work anywhere at this point!
• India
19 Jul 11
Dear, I'll tell you to gain faith in yourself. If you can be a mother you can do anything. God has give you the oppertunity twice to make you realize your strength.Please do not depent on someone except your parents because they do not deserve that.I trusted someone but he threw me out of his life for his convinience.I have lost my mom very recently but still I am living. please don't let him realize that you have no option other than him. Just make him feel that yes he is important to you but not your last option to live. Regain your strength and show the world that you are a mothaer and your are sufficient to nurture your kids.
@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
Im sorry you lost your mom, I wouldnt know what to do with out my mom! :( Actually since we first met, he has been wanting me to work, and be independent of myself, just in case something happens to us, but I just cant get a job...its soo hard! I wish peoples can be kind and give me a chance. My moms apartment that she is living now, she is about to leave it in September, and wants me to rent it, its going to be 1200 for 2 bedrooms utilities all included. But where am I gonna find a job that payes me 1200+ a month! I was thinking that maybe my boyfriend can live with me, see how that goes...if we both get a job of course, cuz I think whats making me hate it here, is that we live with HIS clean freak of a mom....and thats getting on my nerves!!!
@diala84 (138)
• United States
19 Jul 11
I would say your kids are number one priority don't end this just to live on the street or end up in a worse situation. Try to work things out with you boyfriend (counseling, have date nights and evenings out without the kids, etc..), get a job and save up some money. Maybe you could start your own catering business and hire people below you to do the actual grunt work. There are lots of low end jobs high in demand such as caregiver usually with limited or no experience necessary. Some will hire you right on the spot. If things really can't work out move out but make sure you can support yourself otherwise you are going from a bad situation to a worse situation. When you have kids your well being comes second.
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@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
20 Jul 11
Thanx for your advice, It was helpful! He said to me today that he wants to work things out, because he doesnt want want the kids staying in seperate homes, and I kinda agree on that. I just need to get out of this apartment, I need to get a job! I guess cause we're ALWAYS together, I see him every single day, well except the weekends when I go to my moms place, but still. We just need jobs so that we can focus on getting out of here, and not seeing our faces all the time. Cause you know thats not healthy you know, being together 24/7 we need some fresh air from each other.
@jbrooks0127 (2324)
• United States
19 Jul 11
Go back 2 1/2 years ago...before this boyfriend and remember what you were doing then. Were you with your parents then or on your own? I assume your bad back came within the last 2 years so that puts you in a bad place financially. Another thing you have left out is why the love has left this relationship. If both of you have worked hard at the relationship and kept it alive for this long something must have happened to make it go bad. How do you feel about him and how does he feel about you? Your not married so I guess one or both of you could not see yourself doing that. Have you considered some other kind of work that you actually can do or is that also not an option. You have to know that your only way out is for you to become financially independent. If you can't see how that can happen you then must somehow fall back on your mother until you can get that next job or and education that will allow you to do something you are able to. Living the way you do now is not good and it sounds like there is little to no chance of it getting any better. While I don't know your situation I can tell you that if your boyfriend is the one that does not want (***) then something has happened to cause that. It is a very rare man that just no longer cares for it for no reason. As for another man being interested in you...having children does complicate that however the kind of man you want and need will not have a problem with that at all. If he cares for you he will also love your children. The problem you have now is getting away from this boyfriend before you begin looking for another. There is no simple answer. You already know that of course. But one thing is for sure. You must begin putting together a plan to make it happen. If you just let it be and keep on keeping on you may wake up one day and find you are on your own and it is tooooo late then.
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@adhyz82 (36249)
• Indonesia
20 Jul 11
iam so sorry for hearing your sad story...i just give comment, dont easily give up...it`s not easy things, i know..but you must wake up for yourself, your pride and your kids...
@ebuscat (5935)
• Philippines
19 Jul 11
For me don't gave up take time to prayed to Jehovah God that he can cure feeling now it is hard to deal with.
@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
Thanx sweetie :)
• Indonesia
19 Jul 11
Cheer up, dude. No time to be sad. Just live your live as usual. Think that there are so many persons love you outside. You are not alone. You will never be alone. Don't cry alone, but smile. Then all people in the world will smile with you.
@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
awe thank you
@RJlady1 (144)
• United States
19 Jul 11
First off, your mother is wrong. Many people who have children later find a good partner. Another thing - you can check to see what services your state has (usually through the unemployment office) for retraining. It could be that they will retrain you to do a sedentary job or something that would not hurt your back. Hope you can get out of your rut soon.
@Lxandra79 (1535)
• United States
19 Jul 11
Yea Ill try and find that out, and thank you :)