am i really a part of them?

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i really love my family. as my love and support for them never ceases. but, as the time goes by, i somehow feel exhausted. exhausted in the sense, that, many times, i cannot feel that they supported me. yes, they do always listen to my thoughts but only on that aspect, hence, they are just listening for the sake that they have listened to me. for this reason, many times, i am thinking, am i really a part of this family. am i a legal daughter and a true siblings to my sisters and brother. a lot of questioning bothering to my mind. just like my brother, i always make it a point to help him to the best of my ability. that i am always at his side whenever he needs help in terms of almost all aspects such as support financially, support to the decision that he has made, support for every idea that he has in mind and a lot more. and with that, i never expect him to return the same support that i am giving. but i am not saying, i dont need his support to me. as there are times, i need a helping hand to assist me in some of my errands. just like today, i need his assistance in bringing some foods to one of my client. everything was arranged the night before this day. but, only this morning, he told me that he cannot assist me anymore. fellow mylotters, i almost feel crying when i heard it. why a sudden change of mind from him. and since, i dont want to have a further argument, i just keep my mouth shut. and keep away from him for a while because i dont know what would i feel - should i be feeling angry? i dont really know. this situation not only happened once, not only today, it is almost happening as always. due to this, the question in my mind keeps on bouncing - am i really a part of them?